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It's been a good evening. Very good.
Mom and I have spent some pretty quality time together for the first time in years. She's stable tonight and it's been easy to talk to her. The words flowed between us and many truths have been shared. I'm wary of investing too much emotion in hope, but there's the possibility of forming a relationship over the next few months while I'm here. That's very heartening.
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I'm worried about my diet. I feel... unbalanced? I've been eating without thinking lately. Not necessarily craving things so much as putting food in my mouth without thinking about it or appreciating it. This scares me- the last thing I want is to go back to living and looking the way I did at T-Mobile... I was so unhappy and so unhealthy. Some of my nervous habits have been resumed and I'd like to take que from these small signals to pay more attention to myself. In an attempt to regain myself I think I'll read over the last few weeks of my traveling diary. Maybe I'll be able to sus it all out in my own writings...
Well, goodnight everyone. Sleep well,
Amelia D
Mom and I have spent some pretty quality time together for the first time in years. She's stable tonight and it's been easy to talk to her. The words flowed between us and many truths have been shared. I'm wary of investing too much emotion in hope, but there's the possibility of forming a relationship over the next few months while I'm here. That's very heartening.
...
I'm worried about my diet. I feel... unbalanced? I've been eating without thinking lately. Not necessarily craving things so much as putting food in my mouth without thinking about it or appreciating it. This scares me- the last thing I want is to go back to living and looking the way I did at T-Mobile... I was so unhappy and so unhealthy. Some of my nervous habits have been resumed and I'd like to take que from these small signals to pay more attention to myself. In an attempt to regain myself I think I'll read over the last few weeks of my traveling diary. Maybe I'll be able to sus it all out in my own writings...
Well, goodnight everyone. Sleep well,
Amelia D