i'm going to miss my sleepover that never ends with ryan<3 :0(
Ryan is the best thing that has ever happened to me. He is everything that matters. without him i feel as if i am nothing. i get lost in his smile and his beautiful BEAUTIFUL eyes. his cute amazing laugh that makes me so incredibly happy. he knows me better than i thought anyone else could ever know me. sometimes i think he knows me better than i know myself. i was talking to my dad today and we were talking about my life and about ryan. and i can tell my dad actually cares about ryan<3 and my future together. i think he finally understands that we are in it for the long run. ryan<3 has been helping a lot with my family. my sister was recently in the hospital cuz of a kidney stone. he helped me babysit and shit. my niece and nephew are obsessed with him. the first thing my nephew does when he sees me is "wheres ryan? is ryan here?" he doesnt even say hi to me or gives me a hug. he asks where ryan is. lol. its so cuteeeee<3. he is so amazing with children. he is not only my lover, my best friend but hes also part of my family. everyone loves him. it means so much to me knowing that he is so accepted in my family. he cares for me and takes care of me. the most amazing part about him is knowing how much he cares about me. when he looks at me and picks me up you can just see it in his eyes and in his smile. it makes me feel so safe and warm inside. i hate it when we dont get along. it makes me feel so empty inside. i feel like crap knowing that the one person i care the most about i cant get along with. thats not the case though. we get in little tiny tiffs but they feel so big to me cuz i care so much about him. i know that you probably dont really care about my love life and stuff but i feel so happy that i found the one person for me. i dont know i just love him. i have never felt this kind of love before and i know feel complete. <333
love.
love.