Bad Day (Again)
Eric Clapton - My Father's Eyes lets just mention that this is my fav song... i always and i mean ALWAYS have to have this song on my computer becouse its a song with alot of meaning to me...it has a very special meaning to me...shows how much i dislike my father i seriously just hate him. I know it's a bad thing to say but if you ever went through shit i went with my family/father mostly you would understand why i say that. I dont like the way he was i dont like when people tell me i look/act like him it just some how its a very negative compliment to me and its offending me. I dont like when people remaind me of him, talk about him, show me his pictures, or try to tell me what a gr8 man he was...stop bullshitting me i am not fucken 4 years anymore i know the difference between bad and good, wrong and right. And he was a bad guy doing wron' things with the most repugant personality ever.
Anyways today i decided to stay home again...becouse i didn't feel well and becouse my ankle hurts and just becouse i wanted to. Spencer tryed to get me out of the house and go clubbin' and later go to a party...but no thank you.
Today was not really a good day for me. I somehow didn't enjoy it...even tho i didn't really do much i just didn't like it people were annoying me, i got in few fights and stuff (that damn Antoine AKA tri's gay lil brother) and just my attitude jumped a bunch but only today hopefully tomorrow i am gona be all happy and willing to enjoy my day. I also don't know why the hell i am writting this entry since i already made one...but i just wanted to get some shit outta my head and write it on here i am not sure if i am gona make this entry public or private but oh wells i guess none of you really knows me, so you can't really judge me by few words i wrote. That's also one of the things i don't like Judgments...yes, when people judge you by your looks, personality, your attitude and actions after 24 hours of knowing you...WTF is that about? seriously, i am a free person, i make my own rules, i fallow my own rules and i do not listen to anyone well few people but mostly myself i belive if i make a mistake it was becouse i directed myself in a wrong direction when someone tells me to do something i feel like i don't have the will/ power to live my own life...i don't like that and i know some ppl who read this will noticed and agree with me since they know me for a while and they know how i am. Not all of you may understand the world i live in but maybe some. And people always bitch to me how i am a close minded person, who is not willing to open himself to them, well lemmie tell you one thing i live in a world of my own, everything i do i thought was for myself but it's not ya thats right whatever we do its not for us...we go to school becouse we need education to get a better living is it for us? no no its not. We work becouse we need $$ later on we gona spend every cent of it...is it for us? no no its not its just to live our life and make sure we have clothes on our asses and food on the table...we pretty much do whatever we do for someone else...atleast that's what "I" think ...some of you may disagree with me...but oh well. Other thing that thing " peer preasure" i know ive spoken about it before but god...i still belive, i belived before and always will THERE...IS...NO...SUCH...THING...AS...PEER...PREASURE. We just think there is so we can blame others for making all those bad decisions in our life...seriously think about it in Hs i bet all the teachers told u about it...well they told me about it over and over ...just say NO to it...ok like whatever. I belive if a person wants to smoke...or drink...or have sex its their choice nobody is making you do all this...and mostly that's what the Hs teachers talked about
say NO to sex
say NO to drugs
say NO to strangers
ok ...point? say FUCK YOU to teachers cuz none of em got the IQ of a teenager with hormons. Ok i don't know wtf i just wrote and if it got any sense but ...this is my opinion.
Anyways today i decided to stay home again...becouse i didn't feel well and becouse my ankle hurts and just becouse i wanted to. Spencer tryed to get me out of the house and go clubbin' and later go to a party...but no thank you.
Today was not really a good day for me. I somehow didn't enjoy it...even tho i didn't really do much i just didn't like it people were annoying me, i got in few fights and stuff (that damn Antoine AKA tri's gay lil brother) and just my attitude jumped a bunch but only today hopefully tomorrow i am gona be all happy and willing to enjoy my day. I also don't know why the hell i am writting this entry since i already made one...but i just wanted to get some shit outta my head and write it on here i am not sure if i am gona make this entry public or private but oh wells i guess none of you really knows me, so you can't really judge me by few words i wrote. That's also one of the things i don't like Judgments...yes, when people judge you by your looks, personality, your attitude and actions after 24 hours of knowing you...WTF is that about? seriously, i am a free person, i make my own rules, i fallow my own rules and i do not listen to anyone well few people but mostly myself i belive if i make a mistake it was becouse i directed myself in a wrong direction when someone tells me to do something i feel like i don't have the will/ power to live my own life...i don't like that and i know some ppl who read this will noticed and agree with me since they know me for a while and they know how i am. Not all of you may understand the world i live in but maybe some. And people always bitch to me how i am a close minded person, who is not willing to open himself to them, well lemmie tell you one thing i live in a world of my own, everything i do i thought was for myself but it's not ya thats right whatever we do its not for us...we go to school becouse we need education to get a better living is it for us? no no its not. We work becouse we need $$ later on we gona spend every cent of it...is it for us? no no its not its just to live our life and make sure we have clothes on our asses and food on the table...we pretty much do whatever we do for someone else...atleast that's what "I" think ...some of you may disagree with me...but oh well. Other thing that thing " peer preasure" i know ive spoken about it before but god...i still belive, i belived before and always will THERE...IS...NO...SUCH...THING...AS...PEER...PREASURE. We just think there is so we can blame others for making all those bad decisions in our life...seriously think about it in Hs i bet all the teachers told u about it...well they told me about it over and over ...just say NO to it...ok like whatever. I belive if a person wants to smoke...or drink...or have sex its their choice nobody is making you do all this...and mostly that's what the Hs teachers talked about
say NO to sex
say NO to drugs
say NO to strangers
ok ...point? say FUCK YOU to teachers cuz none of em got the IQ of a teenager with hormons. Ok i don't know wtf i just wrote and if it got any sense but ...this is my opinion.