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I just got out of the shower and feeling a lot better, hehe did I tell you I use my dogs shampoo for body wash? Lol I know it’s weird but I really like the smell of it, and yes my director is noticing how im slowly losing my mind and is asking if im nuts. I told him it was ok and that I was choosing to do this so it is not really his fault, my friends are pissed at me but they realize that once I made up my mind its gonna be hard to change it.
My friend Jason just came out to his parents and they kicked him out 3 times this weekend, he was crying this morning cause they looked through his backpack and found all his makeup. Although we used to be close friends, I told him “if god will put you in it, he will pull you through it” lol. We had our English 4AP teacher, Mrs. Conrotto call his mother and talked to him. I showed him the email Neil sent me about “the $20 bill”, he started crying when I read him that mail and said that it was very beautiful. It was all very sad…I dunno especially since today was storming and raining and all dark, I felt kinda bad cause I couldn’t do anything but I realize that this is his battle not mine. I told him that no matter what I’m always going to be here and if he ever feels alone…to just realize that even if his friends are not there physically...they’re there spiritually and watching his back so he shouldn’t have to worry about being isolated. I think that he is going to have to come out sooner or later and to might as well get this chapter of his life over with, his parents sorta found out “accidentally”…I just hope he’s ok. I also told him a lot about Neil and how he came in my life and that I view him as an older brother. Jason is a very smart and brilliant kid, we went through basically the same shit growing up and he was the first person I came out to. I love him also like a brother and we’ve been the best of friends for 4 years, just currently we aren’t as close anymore cause I guess our views on certain things changed. This guy at my school tried to convert me to Christianity cause he saw all the scars on my arms and various pictures of mutilated and dead people in my folder. He thought god sent me to him to test his loyalty or something, and he’s been trying to get me to see god’s light. HES SO FUCKING RELIGIOUS lol, he said if he didn’t get me to convert by the end of this year…he would have failed his mission. Crazy huh? But hes a cool kid, he’s not close-minded despite a lot of things that were preached. He’s the coolest Christian kid I know haha.
PPl have always asked me what my type of guy was. My type of guy…well I’m mostly attracted to the bad bois, I think guys with piercings and tattoos are hot. Punk rockers and goth guys did it for me once, guys with a dead zombie look. I’m attracted to a lot of guys people don’t find attractive, I thought the vampire from “BLADE 2” (the main one) was perfect. I used to wear all black and dyed my hair super dark and wear only marilyn manson clothes, I passed that phase, now im only wearing Hollister and A&F clothes =]. My taste in people have changed also, I am not into the whole killing spree with bloody knives and gore anymore, now im just very down to earth. I like ppl that are smart and stand out on their own, someone that dress nice and have a good sense of humor as well as a bombass personality. Of course they have to have that naughty side so we can be nasty together hahah.
Things have sucked recently...regarding lovers in general. im really confused...have u ever really loved someone than something cuts right in the middle of it? iunno ill tell a story tomorrow wen im not so sleepy lol.
<3 TyLeR BiNg
My friend Jason just came out to his parents and they kicked him out 3 times this weekend, he was crying this morning cause they looked through his backpack and found all his makeup. Although we used to be close friends, I told him “if god will put you in it, he will pull you through it” lol. We had our English 4AP teacher, Mrs. Conrotto call his mother and talked to him. I showed him the email Neil sent me about “the $20 bill”, he started crying when I read him that mail and said that it was very beautiful. It was all very sad…I dunno especially since today was storming and raining and all dark, I felt kinda bad cause I couldn’t do anything but I realize that this is his battle not mine. I told him that no matter what I’m always going to be here and if he ever feels alone…to just realize that even if his friends are not there physically...they’re there spiritually and watching his back so he shouldn’t have to worry about being isolated. I think that he is going to have to come out sooner or later and to might as well get this chapter of his life over with, his parents sorta found out “accidentally”…I just hope he’s ok. I also told him a lot about Neil and how he came in my life and that I view him as an older brother. Jason is a very smart and brilliant kid, we went through basically the same shit growing up and he was the first person I came out to. I love him also like a brother and we’ve been the best of friends for 4 years, just currently we aren’t as close anymore cause I guess our views on certain things changed. This guy at my school tried to convert me to Christianity cause he saw all the scars on my arms and various pictures of mutilated and dead people in my folder. He thought god sent me to him to test his loyalty or something, and he’s been trying to get me to see god’s light. HES SO FUCKING RELIGIOUS lol, he said if he didn’t get me to convert by the end of this year…he would have failed his mission. Crazy huh? But hes a cool kid, he’s not close-minded despite a lot of things that were preached. He’s the coolest Christian kid I know haha.
PPl have always asked me what my type of guy was. My type of guy…well I’m mostly attracted to the bad bois, I think guys with piercings and tattoos are hot. Punk rockers and goth guys did it for me once, guys with a dead zombie look. I’m attracted to a lot of guys people don’t find attractive, I thought the vampire from “BLADE 2” (the main one) was perfect. I used to wear all black and dyed my hair super dark and wear only marilyn manson clothes, I passed that phase, now im only wearing Hollister and A&F clothes =]. My taste in people have changed also, I am not into the whole killing spree with bloody knives and gore anymore, now im just very down to earth. I like ppl that are smart and stand out on their own, someone that dress nice and have a good sense of humor as well as a bombass personality. Of course they have to have that naughty side so we can be nasty together hahah.
Things have sucked recently...regarding lovers in general. im really confused...have u ever really loved someone than something cuts right in the middle of it? iunno ill tell a story tomorrow wen im not so sleepy lol.
<3 TyLeR BiNg