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Well, it's been a many good years with this thing. Since 7th grade gosh. This officially retires today and I move to
mangogelato
I'm going to add people and I hope you guys will add me back (if you have not already :)) because I want to read about you!
So last thoughts...
I spent the majority of these past 2-3 days crying. I know everyone has to move on.. leave for college and I'm probably being a big baby but I can't help it. I'm going to miss it all.. complaining about MSJ, crazy nights with friends, trying to entertain ourselves in the seemingly empty Fremont, bickering with my family, sleeping in my bed, lounging around the house, caring for the turtles, giving people vegetables from my garden, and so so much more.
When people ask me how my summer went, I can only say.. rushed. Incredibly rushed. I did nothing I wanted to and found myself penciling in time with my friends because I was so busy. And now, I don't feel like I have the closure to move on.. to leave the friendships I built for so many years, some since 1st grade. Lately, I began to just slow down.. pause, and take a look around. I spoke with Bryan this morning during our breakfast together and it seems he does it too. When I'm driving home from soccer or whatever.. I just look around and realize all of this is going to be gone. No more hills, the bay, mission peak, the cute bagel shop.. suburbia. Everything went by so fast and now it's time to leave.
I don't know how you guys do it. I don't want to leave, I've been regretting my decision like crazy. I said goodbye to my soccer team yesterday, so hard, and even harder was seeing Jackie for the last time till December. Tomorrow, my family.. I can't even think about saying goodbye.
Well, I guess there's not much for me to do but just deal with it. I really hope these next few months fly by quickly. I hope I get internet tomorrow but chances are I won't. Sunday it is.
In less than 24 hours, I will be in my new home. Scary.
mangogelato
I'm going to add people and I hope you guys will add me back (if you have not already :)) because I want to read about you!
So last thoughts...
I spent the majority of these past 2-3 days crying. I know everyone has to move on.. leave for college and I'm probably being a big baby but I can't help it. I'm going to miss it all.. complaining about MSJ, crazy nights with friends, trying to entertain ourselves in the seemingly empty Fremont, bickering with my family, sleeping in my bed, lounging around the house, caring for the turtles, giving people vegetables from my garden, and so so much more.
When people ask me how my summer went, I can only say.. rushed. Incredibly rushed. I did nothing I wanted to and found myself penciling in time with my friends because I was so busy. And now, I don't feel like I have the closure to move on.. to leave the friendships I built for so many years, some since 1st grade. Lately, I began to just slow down.. pause, and take a look around. I spoke with Bryan this morning during our breakfast together and it seems he does it too. When I'm driving home from soccer or whatever.. I just look around and realize all of this is going to be gone. No more hills, the bay, mission peak, the cute bagel shop.. suburbia. Everything went by so fast and now it's time to leave.
I don't know how you guys do it. I don't want to leave, I've been regretting my decision like crazy. I said goodbye to my soccer team yesterday, so hard, and even harder was seeing Jackie for the last time till December. Tomorrow, my family.. I can't even think about saying goodbye.
Well, I guess there's not much for me to do but just deal with it. I really hope these next few months fly by quickly. I hope I get internet tomorrow but chances are I won't. Sunday it is.
In less than 24 hours, I will be in my new home. Scary.