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Wow. I'm very jittery right now about 1.5 hours after finishing a cinnamon spice coffee. My hands are shaking a bit, my brain is rushing thru a lot of things at once and I can't sit still. Actually I should clarify that, my hands are twitching not shaking. Twitching is a smaller version of shaking. Usually this only happens after drinking a lot of boba milk tea or when I intake too much candy at one time. I guess it's the caffeine or perhaps the sugar, although usually coffee doesn't have this much of an effect on me, although I usually do drink my coffee black so I guess there isn't much sugar in it.
Oh and I decided to write because I might as well utilize this restless energy towards doing something productive before it wears off and I fall into a lethargic crash.
So yeah, last week was basically study all day/night for midterm smackdowns while this whole week was a one-on-one session with Quantum Mechanics homework set. There was a lot of calculus involved with this homework set and I felt depressed and slightly ashamed that I had done more calculus this week than the past 2 years combined. Aw well it brought back some very pleasant (and unpleasant) memories/nightmares from sophomore year.
I also discovered (rediscovered?) that I receive a certain joy in meeting up with people. This really isn't something new but in the past I really limited myself to really only meeting up high school friends. I really do enjoy meeting up with people one-on-one and just spending time getting to know someone on a deeper level and learning about their worldview. I do always have this fear of not having enough conversation topics but truthfully my conversations only seem to stall around girls I'm interested in going out with and rednecks. Every time I have a conversation with Abbas I not only enjoy our meeting but once we part our ways I just feel slightly giddy, maybe it's some sort of emotional high I after I connect with someone. Heck, it may have actually been just the coffee stimulating my brain and running thru my body.
Interestingly enough even though I feel extremely jittery and twitchy, my pulse is not accelerated one bit. I can barely feel my carotid artery pumping at all.
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6 hours later....
Well my jitteriness is gone but I don't know if the giddiness is.
I wanted to go to Campus Movie Fest. Too bad no one wanted to go with me =*(
However I found one good thing about going alone -- I could walk as fast as I wanted to, or in my case run. For some reason I felt the desire to run to the theatre, and so I did. It was exhilarating. I decided to run back to my room after the viewing was over.
I think I must be high off of something...
Well at least I can feel my pulse clearly now.
Wow. I'm very jittery right now about 1.5 hours after finishing a cinnamon spice coffee. My hands are shaking a bit, my brain is rushing thru a lot of things at once and I can't sit still. Actually I should clarify that, my hands are twitching not shaking. Twitching is a smaller version of shaking. Usually this only happens after drinking a lot of boba milk tea or when I intake too much candy at one time. I guess it's the caffeine or perhaps the sugar, although usually coffee doesn't have this much of an effect on me, although I usually do drink my coffee black so I guess there isn't much sugar in it.
Oh and I decided to write because I might as well utilize this restless energy towards doing something productive before it wears off and I fall into a lethargic crash.
So yeah, last week was basically study all day/night for midterm smackdowns while this whole week was a one-on-one session with Quantum Mechanics homework set. There was a lot of calculus involved with this homework set and I felt depressed and slightly ashamed that I had done more calculus this week than the past 2 years combined. Aw well it brought back some very pleasant (and unpleasant) memories/nightmares from sophomore year.
I also discovered (rediscovered?) that I receive a certain joy in meeting up with people. This really isn't something new but in the past I really limited myself to really only meeting up high school friends. I really do enjoy meeting up with people one-on-one and just spending time getting to know someone on a deeper level and learning about their worldview. I do always have this fear of not having enough conversation topics but truthfully my conversations only seem to stall around girls I'm interested in going out with and rednecks. Every time I have a conversation with Abbas I not only enjoy our meeting but once we part our ways I just feel slightly giddy, maybe it's some sort of emotional high I after I connect with someone. Heck, it may have actually been just the coffee stimulating my brain and running thru my body.
Interestingly enough even though I feel extremely jittery and twitchy, my pulse is not accelerated one bit. I can barely feel my carotid artery pumping at all.
[edit]
6 hours later....
Well my jitteriness is gone but I don't know if the giddiness is.
I wanted to go to Campus Movie Fest. Too bad no one wanted to go with me =*(
However I found one good thing about going alone -- I could walk as fast as I wanted to, or in my case run. For some reason I felt the desire to run to the theatre, and so I did. It was exhilarating. I decided to run back to my room after the viewing was over.
I think I must be high off of something...
Well at least I can feel my pulse clearly now.