why
"God broke my heart, but I still have hope..." said the fiancée. She cried in front of us all, unable to hold back the tears anymore.
Just when I feel like there was so much passion in my heart, things happen, and now I feel like I'm still trying to find a direction in my life. A man named Sang Kim was supposed to be married around Labor Day. Heavy intestinal surgery kept postponing the marriage. Then he passed away two days ago, even though so many people came to visit and pray for him. So many people had so much faith in him, but God decided that it was his turn to go with him.
Sang was only 33 when he passed away.
I don't know why I am writing this, because I didn't even know Sang. I just know that it was a tragedy in my own heart, because I am a romantic person. When I heard about him in the hospital I prayed for him, because I wanted them to have a happy marriage. But when the pastor announced this, it stabbed me deeply. And ever since, it felt like my heart was bleeding inside, and my tears couldn't stop flowing out.
Yesterday, I attended the memorial service, saw Sang's fiancée's and family's faces for the first time, even though they were crying. After I left, I tried to play DDR or Tekken in hopes of getting it off my mind. It didn't work. The words she said.. how He broke her heart, just keep ringing in my ears.
Today, it keeps hitting me whenever I think about it, and I don't know why. "Maybe there aren't happy endings after all" I keep thinking.
Why, God?
Just when I feel like there was so much passion in my heart, things happen, and now I feel like I'm still trying to find a direction in my life. A man named Sang Kim was supposed to be married around Labor Day. Heavy intestinal surgery kept postponing the marriage. Then he passed away two days ago, even though so many people came to visit and pray for him. So many people had so much faith in him, but God decided that it was his turn to go with him.
Sang was only 33 when he passed away.
I don't know why I am writing this, because I didn't even know Sang. I just know that it was a tragedy in my own heart, because I am a romantic person. When I heard about him in the hospital I prayed for him, because I wanted them to have a happy marriage. But when the pastor announced this, it stabbed me deeply. And ever since, it felt like my heart was bleeding inside, and my tears couldn't stop flowing out.
Yesterday, I attended the memorial service, saw Sang's fiancée's and family's faces for the first time, even though they were crying. After I left, I tried to play DDR or Tekken in hopes of getting it off my mind. It didn't work. The words she said.. how He broke her heart, just keep ringing in my ears.
Today, it keeps hitting me whenever I think about it, and I don't know why. "Maybe there aren't happy endings after all" I keep thinking.
Why, God?