"Yea, and when Ms. Independent walked away, i was like, FUCK"
Had one of the most amusing conversations with ladywitch Def. made my day. I played the guitar a lot, and...im gettin kinda good...its cool. Lessons do make a dif.
Yes Im happy. Yes Im lonly. But Im happy....right?
"and you can't sit here and bitch about how you'd try so hard if she would just come back, because in all likelihood, she is not coming back. all you can do is try to stop this from happening the next time, because there will be a next time. and if you let this keep scaring you, it'll just make that next time so much worse."
I was having the best day until exactly one minute ago. I already regret what i said the night before. But now I REALLY regret it...seeing those makes me see what I lost...damnit...and its not the beauty of each one of them. its the beautiful person and the beauty that they hold inside them... Now im just pissed at myself... not necessarily depressed. just really really pissed. frustrated that my life cant be easier. frustrated that I cant make me life easier. Frustrated that I make my life harder than it should be. I wish i knew how to unflip it ya knw?
Well. at least I'll have something to talk about in therepy.
The only thing I have left to say is that I apologize. Im sorry that I have to say sorry all the time. Im sorry that I acted so immature. That I acted like that at all. I apologize. That's all I can say.
I'm sorry.
~girl
Yes Im happy. Yes Im lonly. But Im happy....right?
"and you can't sit here and bitch about how you'd try so hard if she would just come back, because in all likelihood, she is not coming back. all you can do is try to stop this from happening the next time, because there will be a next time. and if you let this keep scaring you, it'll just make that next time so much worse."
I was having the best day until exactly one minute ago. I already regret what i said the night before. But now I REALLY regret it...seeing those makes me see what I lost...damnit...and its not the beauty of each one of them. its the beautiful person and the beauty that they hold inside them... Now im just pissed at myself... not necessarily depressed. just really really pissed. frustrated that my life cant be easier. frustrated that I cant make me life easier. Frustrated that I make my life harder than it should be. I wish i knew how to unflip it ya knw?
Well. at least I'll have something to talk about in therepy.
The only thing I have left to say is that I apologize. Im sorry that I have to say sorry all the time. Im sorry that I acted so immature. That I acted like that at all. I apologize. That's all I can say.
I'm sorry.
~girl