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[azngirl]

in the rain
i saw her standing there
clutching desperately as her secrets poured out
through the wound I made
for her
because i am a deliberate attempt
at what is best for everyone else
because I am a failed attempt
at what is best for myself

i am tired
and letting go
i tried

in the night
i saw him sleeping there
clinging desperately, as my hope was draining out,
to the life i made
for us
because i am a deliberate attempt
at what is best for every man i ever loved
because i am a failed attempt
at what is best for me

i am tired
and letting go
i tried
and tried to be
a better girl

through the dirt
you saw me kneeling there
clutching desperately to everything i’ve ever known
in the hole i dug
for me
because i am a deliberate attempt
at what i think is best for everyone
because i am a desperate attempt
at what i think is best for me

and i am tired
and letting go
i tried