Please Ban Me
To all the communities I have left:
Yaoi has been something I really loved for a long time now but it's just one of those things that I know I will have to give up in the future. If I will be tortured in the future might as well start getting used to the pain now. Since I doubt none of you know me in person here is a brief background with all the reasoning:
I come from a very strictly religious background and am part of a society that are ardently opposed to homosexuality and thus yaoi. I have hidden my love for yaoi from everyone around me for a long long time. This account was initially made for the sole purpose of myself being able to be able to feed my yaoi hunger without anyone knowing or judging me for my interests. I'm tired of being a hypocrite and have decided I have to choose to go in one direction (goes with the saying you can't use one rudder to steer two boats, etc.).
I love my family and have been with the community for all my life. If I choose yaoi (as one of the many questionable things I enjoy) I will have to give up everything I have been acquainted with for as long as I remember. No no one has found out about my love just yet (at least none I know of) and no no one is persecuting me. I've just come to the conclusion that I don't want to keep feeling so guilty all the time and it is very exhausting hiding this from everyone and storing all my yaoi related things in hidden folders on my computer or on my usbs (trust me I became a pro at this).
I have currently left all the communities that post yaoi scans/doujinshis/fan fiction/ anime (or at least all the ones that only post yaoi content). I have also in some way shape or form contacted the owners/mods, etc, to ban me so that I can't turn from this decision. I hope that you will all ban me as I have asked so that in my weak moments I won't slip back into my yaoi-loving ways. I ask also that (even if you don't agree or understand why I am doing this) you all also ignore my demented pleas when I am weak and come begging that you let me read your yaoi related stuff.
Thank you.
Yaoi has been something I really loved for a long time now but it's just one of those things that I know I will have to give up in the future. If I will be tortured in the future might as well start getting used to the pain now. Since I doubt none of you know me in person here is a brief background with all the reasoning:
I come from a very strictly religious background and am part of a society that are ardently opposed to homosexuality and thus yaoi. I have hidden my love for yaoi from everyone around me for a long long time. This account was initially made for the sole purpose of myself being able to be able to feed my yaoi hunger without anyone knowing or judging me for my interests. I'm tired of being a hypocrite and have decided I have to choose to go in one direction (goes with the saying you can't use one rudder to steer two boats, etc.).
I love my family and have been with the community for all my life. If I choose yaoi (as one of the many questionable things I enjoy) I will have to give up everything I have been acquainted with for as long as I remember. No no one has found out about my love just yet (at least none I know of) and no no one is persecuting me. I've just come to the conclusion that I don't want to keep feeling so guilty all the time and it is very exhausting hiding this from everyone and storing all my yaoi related things in hidden folders on my computer or on my usbs (trust me I became a pro at this).
I have currently left all the communities that post yaoi scans/doujinshis/fan fiction/ anime (or at least all the ones that only post yaoi content). I have also in some way shape or form contacted the owners/mods, etc, to ban me so that I can't turn from this decision. I hope that you will all ban me as I have asked so that in my weak moments I won't slip back into my yaoi-loving ways. I ask also that (even if you don't agree or understand why I am doing this) you all also ignore my demented pleas when I am weak and come begging that you let me read your yaoi related stuff.
Thank you.