Dexter
Recently my free time has been consumed with watching the Showtime Series Dexter. The show follows a serial killer who commits his killings to a strict code; only satisfying is thirst for death by killing those whom have escaped the long arm of the law. Blessed/cursed with no human emotion, he lives in his community struggling to fit into the norm. Fearing the repercussions of society discovering his true self, Dexter is forced to disguise his true personality by masquerading as an average Joe.
This fear of being discovered also lies within me. Or so I have just discovered. I do not fear the discovery of my illegal activity, to that I have none. More so I fear the discovery of who I am; the fear of being rejected for who I truly am. In Pepperdine, I masquerade as a quiet and polite student. I say my please and thank yous, when I wish to say my bitch and fuck yous. Not to say that I am a vulgar person, I just am not this politically correct and mundane person these people would have you believe.
“Hiding in plain sight.” This is what he calls his disguise. I do not feel as if I belong into this group, yet I am forced to live in this society. So I must learn to take on this acceptable persona. Why do I have this feeling that I must deny people of who I am? As if there is something wrong with who I really am. People say that you must “give a little to get a little.” In this case, become what society wants in order for you to achieve your professional goals. I know this is how it is usually done, but it is not a must. The most innovative people are the people who do not allow themselves conform to the norms of society. It was because of their individuality that they were able to bring change into our stagnant world. It is important to trust in yourself that I am different for a reason. God has chosen for me to be different from others. Dexter is different the way that he is able to rid society from terrible criminals. Maybe I can do the same, if I allow myself the freedom to do it the way I was meant to.