decisions decisions.
the last thing my mom said to me before I left for work is, "Smile, you look more handsome when you smile." The amount of denial my parents have for me is unbelievable, or is it just apathy. These experiences give me the force to strive for a better relationship with my children when they come along. More importantly however, while driving away I thought about how this friday I will not be driving back to the same home. Tomorrow my lola will be traveling to Arizona to be with my cousin, so that she may help them take care of his children. I would testify that we have had more than our fair share with our lola's time. She has helped raised us from what it seemed like our very first moments here on earth. I guess it is time that she spends time with the rest of her grandchildren and great grandchildren. Also my brother King and baby sister kathlene will be flying to the Philippines for our cousins wedding. My sister will be back in about two weeks, but my brother will not be back for another month. He has scheduled to take a quick tour of Korea. Pretty jealous of the vacation. But he deserves it.
Last night I have made a two large decisions. First I have decided to waive my acceptance to Azusa Pacific, in hopes of enrolling into Pepperdine. Next, I have decided to be more patient with my next relationship. Boths decisions were quite obvious, however I sitll needed some help confirming these decisions. Thanks to a great talk with Melissa, I was able to follow my own advice. Sometimes you just need someone who can listen so that you can figure things out. And encouragement from a great friend helps also. I know if I accpet the offer from Azusa Pacific, I will always wonder about Pepperdine. Though it may be a sure thing, you cannot leave that doubt in your mind. I cannot sell myself short. I need to believe that I can accomplish greater. I have worked too hard to settle for second best.
Same goes for my second decision. I cannot rush into the next sure thing. I need to try to take things slow and not just rush into a relationship. I guess I'm just one of those relatipnship guys. I don't care for the hook ups or that sort of thing. I like the feeling of being with someone. Having someone to call and being able to count on seeing their face regularly. But this time I have to do things correctly. Thinking someone one is attractive is not the same thing as liking somone. And just because you like someone, doesn't mean you have to be together. Just gotta wait for things to develop, before taking things to the next level.
So many things to look forward too. . None seems to be coming soon enough.
~kris
Last night I have made a two large decisions. First I have decided to waive my acceptance to Azusa Pacific, in hopes of enrolling into Pepperdine. Next, I have decided to be more patient with my next relationship. Boths decisions were quite obvious, however I sitll needed some help confirming these decisions. Thanks to a great talk with Melissa, I was able to follow my own advice. Sometimes you just need someone who can listen so that you can figure things out. And encouragement from a great friend helps also. I know if I accpet the offer from Azusa Pacific, I will always wonder about Pepperdine. Though it may be a sure thing, you cannot leave that doubt in your mind. I cannot sell myself short. I need to believe that I can accomplish greater. I have worked too hard to settle for second best.
Same goes for my second decision. I cannot rush into the next sure thing. I need to try to take things slow and not just rush into a relationship. I guess I'm just one of those relatipnship guys. I don't care for the hook ups or that sort of thing. I like the feeling of being with someone. Having someone to call and being able to count on seeing their face regularly. But this time I have to do things correctly. Thinking someone one is attractive is not the same thing as liking somone. And just because you like someone, doesn't mean you have to be together. Just gotta wait for things to develop, before taking things to the next level.
So many things to look forward too. . None seems to be coming soon enough.
~kris