Just Updates...Since I lack writing everyday!
Hey so its been a for days that I've written in this journal to talk about my life. Its been rather nice for the past few month or so... I'm still livin away from home, but even though its seems that I have to live for myself...pay bills n stuff, its relieving... I've been able to spend lots of time with Cesar and we've been closer than ever!!! There has been the occasional tension towards him for being a little too friendly with girls, but I've learned that I have to deal with it. Its in his nature and even when he doesn't try to do it intentionally, it happens. I've cried a few times thinkin that my life is just a time bomb waitin to explode only cuz it seems that I do the same things everyday, n yet, I haven't progressed one bit, but then I think again, n I realize that I have grown up so much as a person...I think I'm doin alright. I go to school, go to work, pay my bills, still have time for Cesar, and I can go home knowing I haven't failed just yet... My relationship with Cesar is such a beautiful thing to me. I don't think that there is anything and anyone that can change how I feel about him. I know that cuz I've been tested...by "friends" and my own family. The only fear that I have ever had about him is that one day, he may find someone who may seem to be better than me... But no, my FRIENDS do tell me that they do see that he cares for me n that he won't find anyone better... That's always calmed my senses... I feel that my life is going through an obstacle that is unexplainable. It doesn't necessarily need physical ability, but maybe mental... My hubby is my support system n he keeps me going everyday... I love him so much!!! Our one year anniversary is in nine days and I want to do something really nice for him, but I don't know what, just yet. I'm looking forward to the many years with him... People may not have faith in us, but we've gone this far n I know that we can... For all the people that I haven't seen in forever, I hope that you all are doing well... I miss alot of you!!! If anyone wants to talk, you can call me up @ 951-616-7993... Well, i guess i'm done for now! Tah-tah...