明年今日
It's been over a decade, but every once in a while, I still think about you. I wonder how you are, and where you are at. I wonder if you are still the same, or have you changed. I wonder if you are happy, and I wonder if you are alone. For your sake, I hope not. I hope you have found a nice girl that loves you truly and deeply, and I hope that you feel the same way for her too. I hope that if you are married, that some day you will have children, and if one of them is a daughter, I hope that you will remember me then. I hope you have found what you sought, and I hope that you will teach your children what it means to love, and to hold.
Back then, I listened to Eason Chan's 明年今日(canto lyrics + eng translation below) many many times over. I wondered when it has passed 10 years, will the emotions finally die down and wash away. Could there be a day that I will not be shaken and moved...but though memories fade and feelings weaken...perhaps one will always have a special rose-coloured place for one's first love. And apparently, 10 years+ is not enough. So I suppose it is a good thing that it is not possible for us to bump into each other anymore at Bloor-Yonge. I mean, do you even remember me? I wasn't even sure if it was really you...and even if it was you...I would still run away and pretend I didn't know you. Because I still can't stay calm around you...not because I am embarrassed that we happened, but because the last few times I saw you in uni...you ran away from me. Lol.
So I am thinking...what do I want...and actually...I did think I could have handled being friends (not immediately, but a few years after)...but I suppose you couldn't. So that is fine and well...no mess, no stress...but still...it would be nice for curious lil' me to know what you are up to...but then I recall Jenn and perhaps that is NOT a good idea. O.o Ahh...5 months of my life I can never forget...the promises made to me...the promises that you asked me to make to you... ... ... you should be married or be soon to marry now. I'm sure your mother will find you someone if you haven't! lol. I didn't ask you to play at my wedding...you made that promise to me. And I sort of hope that you don't actually want me to spend the night before your wedding with you. Like...why would you?? To make sure that you are marrying the right person?? But why would you ask me...we've been non-speaking for years... ... ... and you certainly don't need my permission to marry. If you do happen to read this, which I seriously doubt since no one reads this blog anymore...but if you do...then maybe you should contact me. Haha. Since really, why are you reading this??
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陳奕迅 - Ming Nin Gam Yaht (Next Year, Today) [明年今日]
若这一束吊灯倾泻下来
yeuk je yat chuk diu dang king se ha loi
if the chandelier collapses on me
或者我 已不会存在
waak je ngoh yi bat wooi chuen joi
perhaps I would no longer be alive
即使你不爱
jik si nei bat oi
though your love does not exist
亦不需要分开
yik bat sui yiu fan hoi
I don't see the need to break up
若这一刻我竟严重痴呆
yeuk je yat hak ngoh ging yim jung chi ngoi
maybe I am severely in denial
根本不需要被爱
gan boon bat sui yiu bei oi
I don't need to be loved
永远在床上发梦
wing yuen joi chong seung faat mung
I would stay in my bed forever, dreaming
余生都不会再悲哀
yue sang do bat wooi joi bei oi
never feel sorrow again in my life
人总需要勇敢生存
yan jung sui yiu yung gam sang chuen
people need to live bravely
我还是重新许愿
ngoh waan si jung san hui yuen
I will as well make a new wish
例如学会 承受失恋
lai yue hok wooi sing sau sat luen
to gain the strength to overcome this breakup
明年今日 别要再失眠
ming nin gam yat bit yiu joi sat min
on this day next year, please stop being insomniac
床褥都改变 如果有幸会面
chong yuk do goi bin yue woh yau hang wooi min
many things will change like this mattress, if I have luck to meet you again
或在同伴新婚的盛宴
waak joi tung boon san fan dik sing yin
or else at my friend's wedding banquet
惶惑地等待你出现
wong waak dei dang doi nei chut yin
I would wait for you to appear
明年今日 未见你一年
ming nin gam yat mei gin nei yat nin
on this day next year, I will not have seen you for a year
谁舍得改变 离开你六十年
sui se dak goi bin lei hoi nei luk sap nin
who could bear to change after 60 years of being apart from you
但愿能认得出你的子女
daan yuen nang ying dak chut nei dik ji nui
I hope to be able to recognize your children
临别亦听得到你讲再见
lam bit yik ting dak do nei gong joi gin
and hear your last say good bye before I leave eternally
人总需要勇敢生存
yan jung sui yiu yung gam sang chuen
people need to live bravely
我还是重新许愿
ngoh waan si jung san hui yuen
I will as well make a new wish
例如学会 承受失恋
lai yue hok wooi sing sau sat luen
to gain the strength to overcome this breakup
明年今日 别要再失眠
ming nin gam yat bit yiu joi sat min
on this day next year, please stop being insomniac
床褥都改变 如果有幸会面
chong yuk do goi bin yue woh yau hang wooi min
many things will change like this mattress, if I have luck to meet you again
或在同伴新婚的盛宴
waak joi tung boon san fan dik sing yin
or else at my friend's wedding banquet
惶惑地等待你出现
wong waak dei dang doi nei chut yin
I would wait for you to appear
明年今日 未见你一年
ming nin gam yat mei gin nei yat nin
on this day next year, I will not have seen you for a year
谁舍得改变 离开你六十年
sui se dak goi bin lei hoi nei luk sap nin
who could bear to change after 60 years of being apart from you
但愿能认得出你的子女
daan yuen nang ying dak chut nei dik ji nui
I hope to be able to recognize your children
临别亦听得到你讲再见
lam bit yik ting dak do nei gong joi gin
and hear your last say good bye before I leave eternally
在有生的瞬间能遇到你
joi yau sang dik sun gaan nang yue do nei
if I could meet you during my lifetime again
竟花光所有运气
ging fa gwong soh yau wan hei
I would come to the end of my good fortune
到这日才发现
do je yat choi faat yin
on that very day, I would realize
曾呼吸过空气
jang foo gap gwoh hung hei
I am truly alive
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Note to self: Don't go back and read old entries in LJ! The things that were forgotten and locked away in memory for so long...so easily awakened by reading my written down posts. >.<
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Note to 78 year old self in the future: Look him up at this age...lol. 60 years should do it...? O.o o.O XD
Back then, I listened to Eason Chan's 明年今日(canto lyrics + eng translation below) many many times over. I wondered when it has passed 10 years, will the emotions finally die down and wash away. Could there be a day that I will not be shaken and moved...but though memories fade and feelings weaken...perhaps one will always have a special rose-coloured place for one's first love. And apparently, 10 years+ is not enough. So I suppose it is a good thing that it is not possible for us to bump into each other anymore at Bloor-Yonge. I mean, do you even remember me? I wasn't even sure if it was really you...and even if it was you...I would still run away and pretend I didn't know you. Because I still can't stay calm around you...not because I am embarrassed that we happened, but because the last few times I saw you in uni...you ran away from me. Lol.
So I am thinking...what do I want...and actually...I did think I could have handled being friends (not immediately, but a few years after)...but I suppose you couldn't. So that is fine and well...no mess, no stress...but still...it would be nice for curious lil' me to know what you are up to...but then I recall Jenn and perhaps that is NOT a good idea. O.o Ahh...5 months of my life I can never forget...the promises made to me...the promises that you asked me to make to you... ... ... you should be married or be soon to marry now. I'm sure your mother will find you someone if you haven't! lol. I didn't ask you to play at my wedding...you made that promise to me. And I sort of hope that you don't actually want me to spend the night before your wedding with you. Like...why would you?? To make sure that you are marrying the right person?? But why would you ask me...we've been non-speaking for years... ... ... and you certainly don't need my permission to marry. If you do happen to read this, which I seriously doubt since no one reads this blog anymore...but if you do...then maybe you should contact me. Haha. Since really, why are you reading this??
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陳奕迅 - Ming Nin Gam Yaht (Next Year, Today) [明年今日]
若这一束吊灯倾泻下来
yeuk je yat chuk diu dang king se ha loi
if the chandelier collapses on me
或者我 已不会存在
waak je ngoh yi bat wooi chuen joi
perhaps I would no longer be alive
即使你不爱
jik si nei bat oi
though your love does not exist
亦不需要分开
yik bat sui yiu fan hoi
I don't see the need to break up
若这一刻我竟严重痴呆
yeuk je yat hak ngoh ging yim jung chi ngoi
maybe I am severely in denial
根本不需要被爱
gan boon bat sui yiu bei oi
I don't need to be loved
永远在床上发梦
wing yuen joi chong seung faat mung
I would stay in my bed forever, dreaming
余生都不会再悲哀
yue sang do bat wooi joi bei oi
never feel sorrow again in my life
人总需要勇敢生存
yan jung sui yiu yung gam sang chuen
people need to live bravely
我还是重新许愿
ngoh waan si jung san hui yuen
I will as well make a new wish
例如学会 承受失恋
lai yue hok wooi sing sau sat luen
to gain the strength to overcome this breakup
明年今日 别要再失眠
ming nin gam yat bit yiu joi sat min
on this day next year, please stop being insomniac
床褥都改变 如果有幸会面
chong yuk do goi bin yue woh yau hang wooi min
many things will change like this mattress, if I have luck to meet you again
或在同伴新婚的盛宴
waak joi tung boon san fan dik sing yin
or else at my friend's wedding banquet
惶惑地等待你出现
wong waak dei dang doi nei chut yin
I would wait for you to appear
明年今日 未见你一年
ming nin gam yat mei gin nei yat nin
on this day next year, I will not have seen you for a year
谁舍得改变 离开你六十年
sui se dak goi bin lei hoi nei luk sap nin
who could bear to change after 60 years of being apart from you
但愿能认得出你的子女
daan yuen nang ying dak chut nei dik ji nui
I hope to be able to recognize your children
临别亦听得到你讲再见
lam bit yik ting dak do nei gong joi gin
and hear your last say good bye before I leave eternally
人总需要勇敢生存
yan jung sui yiu yung gam sang chuen
people need to live bravely
我还是重新许愿
ngoh waan si jung san hui yuen
I will as well make a new wish
例如学会 承受失恋
lai yue hok wooi sing sau sat luen
to gain the strength to overcome this breakup
明年今日 别要再失眠
ming nin gam yat bit yiu joi sat min
on this day next year, please stop being insomniac
床褥都改变 如果有幸会面
chong yuk do goi bin yue woh yau hang wooi min
many things will change like this mattress, if I have luck to meet you again
或在同伴新婚的盛宴
waak joi tung boon san fan dik sing yin
or else at my friend's wedding banquet
惶惑地等待你出现
wong waak dei dang doi nei chut yin
I would wait for you to appear
明年今日 未见你一年
ming nin gam yat mei gin nei yat nin
on this day next year, I will not have seen you for a year
谁舍得改变 离开你六十年
sui se dak goi bin lei hoi nei luk sap nin
who could bear to change after 60 years of being apart from you
但愿能认得出你的子女
daan yuen nang ying dak chut nei dik ji nui
I hope to be able to recognize your children
临别亦听得到你讲再见
lam bit yik ting dak do nei gong joi gin
and hear your last say good bye before I leave eternally
在有生的瞬间能遇到你
joi yau sang dik sun gaan nang yue do nei
if I could meet you during my lifetime again
竟花光所有运气
ging fa gwong soh yau wan hei
I would come to the end of my good fortune
到这日才发现
do je yat choi faat yin
on that very day, I would realize
曾呼吸过空气
jang foo gap gwoh hung hei
I am truly alive
************************
Note to self: Don't go back and read old entries in LJ! The things that were forgotten and locked away in memory for so long...so easily awakened by reading my written down posts. >.<
************************
Note to 78 year old self in the future: Look him up at this age...lol. 60 years should do it...? O.o o.O XD