St. Louis
I loved the looks on MC and DL's faces today...XDDDDDDDDDD You guys are so hilarious...
Okay so I'll tell you why here...(DL: If you read this...you can tell MC). So basically...we see each other alot still...even though we were "separated". We are still so well in contact with each other that it sort of seems like we didn't really break up...we just somehow managed to lessen contact...that's all.
A few weeks before...we were together and soulfully chatting...he kissed me...and my eyes got teary...but I still felt sad. I still couldn't feel the same way...as much as he did.
Last Sunday...we were together and soulfully chatting...he kissed me...and tears just fell down silently...like a waterfall...(and believe me...I don't tear up easily)...and yes I was still sort of sad...but something was different. I was touched. I don't why. With one's mind...you can reason with it. But one's heart? A change of heart is a gift from above. It was a decision made in an instant.
Before there was too much thinking...in the end it just came down to who I wanted to see/talk to the most all the time. Who I wanted to love and care for...even though I think that I don't love and care for him enough...as much as he deserves. He doesn't seem to mind though...I think after the separation we are better...the gap is closer...he is less "blind". Haha. And I guess I have decided to try to become more "blind"...haha.
Okay so I'll tell you why here...(DL: If you read this...you can tell MC). So basically...we see each other alot still...even though we were "separated". We are still so well in contact with each other that it sort of seems like we didn't really break up...we just somehow managed to lessen contact...that's all.
A few weeks before...we were together and soulfully chatting...he kissed me...and my eyes got teary...but I still felt sad. I still couldn't feel the same way...as much as he did.
Last Sunday...we were together and soulfully chatting...he kissed me...and tears just fell down silently...like a waterfall...(and believe me...I don't tear up easily)...and yes I was still sort of sad...but something was different. I was touched. I don't why. With one's mind...you can reason with it. But one's heart? A change of heart is a gift from above. It was a decision made in an instant.
Before there was too much thinking...in the end it just came down to who I wanted to see/talk to the most all the time. Who I wanted to love and care for...even though I think that I don't love and care for him enough...as much as he deserves. He doesn't seem to mind though...I think after the separation we are better...the gap is closer...he is less "blind". Haha. And I guess I have decided to try to become more "blind"...haha.