The rising of the new beginning.
"And you are never happy... never satisfied at how things are... so you search... and you pry... and you long to find something that isn't there. and after all this time... it feels to me that you are just looking for problems. and when there aren't any... you make them."
sometimes... it just feels that way, doesn't it? we all try to be happy... we all long for that moment of bliss... but we're scared of it. we're scared that as soon as we let ourselves be happy... we're going to get hurt... to get disappointed. and at that moment... that one moment when there really isn't anything wrong... that one uncomfortable moment of happiness... it is just too much for us to handle. so we doubt ourselves... and we doubt others. so we create problems...to lower our own expectations... so we can never be hurt.
but now think about this... if you sacrifice happiness to destroy fear... what else is left? and i'm left searching for someone who isn't there.
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there are no ordinary moments. there are only the moments we expect... and the ones that throw us completely off guard. i guess unordinary could be seen as either good or bad... as a mishap or something extraordinary... but i personally think something different... a change... is always good. we learn from change... we grow from change... it helps us be who we are... and who we need to be. another chapter in my life is coming... and i look back at the previous chapters in my life... and i see all that i've accomplished and all that i've failed to do. the people i've cared about and the people i've hurt. and when i look back and close that part of my life... i reflect... start a new opening sentence in this future chapter... and make sure i don't have the same moments as i've had before. i make sure i don't make the same mistakes... something new is coming. and i welcome all the moments that are not ordinary. the moments that define our lives.
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sometimes... it just feels that way, doesn't it? we all try to be happy... we all long for that moment of bliss... but we're scared of it. we're scared that as soon as we let ourselves be happy... we're going to get hurt... to get disappointed. and at that moment... that one moment when there really isn't anything wrong... that one uncomfortable moment of happiness... it is just too much for us to handle. so we doubt ourselves... and we doubt others. so we create problems...to lower our own expectations... so we can never be hurt.
but now think about this... if you sacrifice happiness to destroy fear... what else is left? and i'm left searching for someone who isn't there.
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there are no ordinary moments. there are only the moments we expect... and the ones that throw us completely off guard. i guess unordinary could be seen as either good or bad... as a mishap or something extraordinary... but i personally think something different... a change... is always good. we learn from change... we grow from change... it helps us be who we are... and who we need to be. another chapter in my life is coming... and i look back at the previous chapters in my life... and i see all that i've accomplished and all that i've failed to do. the people i've cared about and the people i've hurt. and when i look back and close that part of my life... i reflect... start a new opening sentence in this future chapter... and make sure i don't have the same moments as i've had before. i make sure i don't make the same mistakes... something new is coming. and i welcome all the moments that are not ordinary. the moments that define our lives.
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