Playing with a woman's heart is a capital sin
And should be punishable by law.
So there's this guy at work who, in the previous week, has been pseudo-flirting with me. Note that he's married. Note that he looks like Joseph Gordon Levitt. And most of all, note that he must be the most charming guy I've encountered in my whole life.
There are times that he'd look at me straight in the eye, like he's sending some invisible fairies to drug me up or something. I can't help but stare back. He has pretty, old Hollywood, piercing eyes. Just thinking about them right now makes me swoon. Ew.
And that week when I was forced to be with him, for the first time, I felt like I was in a relationship. He was pestering me sometimes though. He was acting like he wanted to do something drastic, you know, while we're away from prying eyes and staying over at an isolated beach resort. Something to that effect. After realizing this, I decided to suddenly distance myself from him, because, well, I was sort of feeling the same gravitation. That didn't mean well. He's married for chrissakes!
During that time, he had this puppy-dog act all day. I think it was cute, but it was sometimes annoying. I mean, "not here! People - our co-workers - are watching!" But seriously, the fact that my other co-workers were with us might have been the only layer in between my sanity and indulging into a weird relationship with this guy.
After that week, back at the office, back to reality.
I hardly talk to him. Precious.
But, like I said, his having played with my emotions and my awkward reactions... that was just utter shit. He had me torn between my impulse and morality. I'm a hopeless romantic, and at this post-adolescent age, I'm prone to jumping at just any experience of intimacy, since I haven't had any.
Everyday, I secretly yearn for more encounters with him. More short, deep conversations with him. More meeting of the eyes. I know I won't be able to do that, and that it'd be bitchy of me to actually flirt with him. But that's it. I'll have to settle for just imagining some ideal, single guy treating me well as he had.
Cute guys should never attempt to be like this man. It hurts people.
/spinster rant
So there's this guy at work who, in the previous week, has been pseudo-flirting with me. Note that he's married. Note that he looks like Joseph Gordon Levitt. And most of all, note that he must be the most charming guy I've encountered in my whole life.
There are times that he'd look at me straight in the eye, like he's sending some invisible fairies to drug me up or something. I can't help but stare back. He has pretty, old Hollywood, piercing eyes. Just thinking about them right now makes me swoon. Ew.
And that week when I was forced to be with him, for the first time, I felt like I was in a relationship. He was pestering me sometimes though. He was acting like he wanted to do something drastic, you know, while we're away from prying eyes and staying over at an isolated beach resort. Something to that effect. After realizing this, I decided to suddenly distance myself from him, because, well, I was sort of feeling the same gravitation. That didn't mean well. He's married for chrissakes!
During that time, he had this puppy-dog act all day. I think it was cute, but it was sometimes annoying. I mean, "not here! People - our co-workers - are watching!" But seriously, the fact that my other co-workers were with us might have been the only layer in between my sanity and indulging into a weird relationship with this guy.
After that week, back at the office, back to reality.
I hardly talk to him. Precious.
But, like I said, his having played with my emotions and my awkward reactions... that was just utter shit. He had me torn between my impulse and morality. I'm a hopeless romantic, and at this post-adolescent age, I'm prone to jumping at just any experience of intimacy, since I haven't had any.
Everyday, I secretly yearn for more encounters with him. More short, deep conversations with him. More meeting of the eyes. I know I won't be able to do that, and that it'd be bitchy of me to actually flirt with him. But that's it. I'll have to settle for just imagining some ideal, single guy treating me well as he had.
Cute guys should never attempt to be like this man. It hurts people.
/spinster rant