(no subject)
I never wanted someone to be near me as much as I did yesterday. All day was spent thinking, "I don't want to be by myself, I really don't want to."
I kept thinking that...if anyone would come, rub my arm, hold my hand, touch my hair throughout my tossing and turning, then maybe I would not be as scared or as sad.
I just wanted to feel someone's body next to mine. My loneliness was far greater than I had ever anticipated.
Michael came at 8:30 and stayed until about 9:10.
It was only momentarily cured.
Once he left, I was even worse than when he first came.
I am forcing myself to get up.
I am forcing myself to go to school and work.
I've missed three and a half days...can't keep doing it..
I've gotta get better eventually.
I kept thinking that...if anyone would come, rub my arm, hold my hand, touch my hair throughout my tossing and turning, then maybe I would not be as scared or as sad.
I just wanted to feel someone's body next to mine. My loneliness was far greater than I had ever anticipated.
Michael came at 8:30 and stayed until about 9:10.
It was only momentarily cured.
Once he left, I was even worse than when he first came.
I am forcing myself to get up.
I am forcing myself to go to school and work.
I've missed three and a half days...can't keep doing it..
I've gotta get better eventually.