More happy than confused
well i'm still with Richie, and its been the greatest 2 months of my life. Lately i've been really sad than we are so far apart. I live in marana and he lives like 40 miles away and i can only see him on weekends because we go to different schools. School was alright the first couple of days. Drumline has been awesome. But after the first week of school i stopped going everyday because i hated it. I made no friends and people kept making fun of me, and i know i'm not perfect. I already know i'm not the prettiest person in the world i dont need to be reminded everyday. I never told my mom or Richie or anyone that i was unhappy (i'm sorry) I didn't want them to worry about me. I thought i could handle it. and usually i could by hiding my emotions and bottling everything up inside of me not letting anyone in but Richie. But a couple days ago i started PMSing and omg all my emotions are out in the open now. I cry and i cry and i cry about everything. I thought i was just being retarted but now i realize i'm just letting my emotions show. I'm showing how i really feel. Richie was leaving my house this weekend and i cried because i didn't want him to leave. I watched a movie that reminded me of some old days and i cried through the whole thing. I started getting really frustrated at school and i broke down today in the bathroom good thing i took my car in to be fixed today at school so i just drove home. I talked to Mellissa today and she said shes waiting to go back to school so i told her about whats happening at my school and then i got the nerve up to talk to my mom about switching back to TA and she said she'll look into it. So i told her i would because i know what to do. so i dont think I have to go to that aweful school ever again. I hot it there so much. Its so hard without friends. At least at TA i have friends and teachers i know.
PS i miss Richie so much
PS i miss Richie so much