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I'd always been far to intimidated by the gigantic heads on the manniquins (whatever) in Tightrope to ever go in, but they have the cheapest-ass gear ever, it's awsome!! I bought two little $5 tops that are gorgeous and i know that's not much, but sue and i spent so long in there it was funny! We were starving and our feet were aching when we got out. Luckily i'd found a present for L before we got there, otherwise i never would've spent so long shopping for myself. I spent a long time staring at this sexy little black dress from another store, but ended up walking away, just cos when do i ever wear sexy black dresses? Not quite.
May've mentioned before but the housemates invited me to Charlton for their races or something at the beginning of november. I've scanned the wardrobe, i'm gonna have to get a dress. I thought i might be able to pull something off, i have lots of skirts and nice tops, but nothing goes well enough for me to go to races in. And i figure, i'm going with Kat i think, and maybe with some other girls, i could get a lot of wear out of it. Or am i just trying to justify an unjustifiable expense? Apparently Sum gets a lot of attention in Charlton or other woop places cos of the colour of her skin. Not many non-whiteys out back. So, same will go for Sue, which leaves boring old me totally out in the cold! Maybe i'll be attractive cos no one there has ever seen someone as white and almost translucent as I. Yeah.
I'm giving Sue the Source to read, the book that had me shaking and crying almost constantly for a few months earlier this year. I so would love someone to talk to about it, so hope she can get into it. Geoff also brought me one of his fav books to read, and that is so exciting. I love books, and i love loving books and other people loving books and all that. Really hope i like it.
As to the other stuff, still feel this tight painful spot right in the middle of my soul but only when i think about it. I'm living my life, day to day, and not doing too badly i reckon! As long as i can keep control of what i think about, and stuff doesn't get in my face, i'll be fine. Did have a cry to sue about it wed night, feel kinda bad, poor girl what must she think, but since then, aah sweet freedom!
May've mentioned before but the housemates invited me to Charlton for their races or something at the beginning of november. I've scanned the wardrobe, i'm gonna have to get a dress. I thought i might be able to pull something off, i have lots of skirts and nice tops, but nothing goes well enough for me to go to races in. And i figure, i'm going with Kat i think, and maybe with some other girls, i could get a lot of wear out of it. Or am i just trying to justify an unjustifiable expense? Apparently Sum gets a lot of attention in Charlton or other woop places cos of the colour of her skin. Not many non-whiteys out back. So, same will go for Sue, which leaves boring old me totally out in the cold! Maybe i'll be attractive cos no one there has ever seen someone as white and almost translucent as I. Yeah.
I'm giving Sue the Source to read, the book that had me shaking and crying almost constantly for a few months earlier this year. I so would love someone to talk to about it, so hope she can get into it. Geoff also brought me one of his fav books to read, and that is so exciting. I love books, and i love loving books and other people loving books and all that. Really hope i like it.
As to the other stuff, still feel this tight painful spot right in the middle of my soul but only when i think about it. I'm living my life, day to day, and not doing too badly i reckon! As long as i can keep control of what i think about, and stuff doesn't get in my face, i'll be fine. Did have a cry to sue about it wed night, feel kinda bad, poor girl what must she think, but since then, aah sweet freedom!