i tells maybel i tells her
okay all you gays and straights and Queues.
i'm listening to Bjork so everything's going to be okay. I am under a lot of stress and bad things right now. So bad that im doing what i did two years ago to deal. I'm completely ignoring it and becoming completely oblivious and unfeeling. Oh wells. My heart is going to explode any moments, i have such bad chest pain all the time and im scared. I can't go to the doctor because my mom is a deadbeat and so i have to wait until Dee get's Gardianship of me because she'll take me. But who knows how long that will take? maybe i'll just blow by then, or maybe i'll damage me heart so badly it can't be undone, maybe the doctors wont even know. Or maybe it's nothing.
Nate is leaving against my wishes, he's going down south to help people who got fucked over by Katrina. He's going to get killed there but he wont listen to me. He doesn't really care that i need him here or that i don't want him to go. But i shrug because I'll get over him like i get over everything. This all had to end sometime right? and i never deserved him in the first place. and the worst part is that he's going to miss my birthday. Which he also don't care about.
What else?
What else.
New quarter. long 5 day weekend. I have nothing to do of course and no one to play with. Nate took the xbox with him to Clays tonight.
This music is depressing me. Maybe i'll write some stuff for meh zine.
Who will be my replacement/subsitute boyfriend for when Nate leaves?
Great benefits, i cook and clean, i make lots of curries and soups and i can cook meats and debone chicken breasts. I'll keep you warm at night and I'll wake you up in the morning in the kindist ways possible. I serve tea in the morning but i don't make breakfast except on the weekends. The house is mostly empty most of the time and there is high speed internet available and a xbox to play with. I also do laundry.
This is of course a vounteer job.
Both Males and females may apply, im not choosy
comment if interested.
I'm serious, i don't like being alone
i'm listening to Bjork so everything's going to be okay. I am under a lot of stress and bad things right now. So bad that im doing what i did two years ago to deal. I'm completely ignoring it and becoming completely oblivious and unfeeling. Oh wells. My heart is going to explode any moments, i have such bad chest pain all the time and im scared. I can't go to the doctor because my mom is a deadbeat and so i have to wait until Dee get's Gardianship of me because she'll take me. But who knows how long that will take? maybe i'll just blow by then, or maybe i'll damage me heart so badly it can't be undone, maybe the doctors wont even know. Or maybe it's nothing.
Nate is leaving against my wishes, he's going down south to help people who got fucked over by Katrina. He's going to get killed there but he wont listen to me. He doesn't really care that i need him here or that i don't want him to go. But i shrug because I'll get over him like i get over everything. This all had to end sometime right? and i never deserved him in the first place. and the worst part is that he's going to miss my birthday. Which he also don't care about.
What else?
What else.
New quarter. long 5 day weekend. I have nothing to do of course and no one to play with. Nate took the xbox with him to Clays tonight.
This music is depressing me. Maybe i'll write some stuff for meh zine.
Who will be my replacement/subsitute boyfriend for when Nate leaves?
Great benefits, i cook and clean, i make lots of curries and soups and i can cook meats and debone chicken breasts. I'll keep you warm at night and I'll wake you up in the morning in the kindist ways possible. I serve tea in the morning but i don't make breakfast except on the weekends. The house is mostly empty most of the time and there is high speed internet available and a xbox to play with. I also do laundry.
This is of course a vounteer job.
Both Males and females may apply, im not choosy
comment if interested.
I'm serious, i don't like being alone