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little update on what's going on...
have been in this down mood these two days. figures, coz we're like getting back our grades and everyone is owning like shit and i'm floundering. T___T gahhhh. i mean, i've improved and all, but i don't think it's enough. i keep telling myself it doesn't matter, coz at least you're improving, and not like stagnant at the dreaded UNGRADED grade. but siiiiigh. seeing all the really high grades around me does stuff to my self esteem. oh well, let's take small baby steps to the goal. eventually we will reach there! nods.
(gosh, i talk about myself as 'we'. lol. talk about schizophrenic.)
and geee we are performing in open house. hope i'll see my little juniors. :D
rehearsals these few days. SOB. my pinky hurts. i was falling asleep while we were playing for sound check. so tiring! wait so long and then the mikes don't work/ are not switched on when we play. (and there are always extra chairs!!! ;___;)
i think hc guitar ensemble really needs ALOT of work to be at least presentable in syf next year. gosh. my first performing arts cca and we all suck. ^^"
these days i've been rather unhappy with how my mom acts in general. how she keeps nagging at my brother, scolding him, and generally blaming us for things. it's like she's always the blameless one, and even when she's in the wrong, she always has an excuse to be in the wrong. and she's always right. i hate it when people think they are doing what's good for you but are so wrapped up in their self-righteousness and don't even stop to ask you what you feel of what they're doing. or even ask you if you even want them to do it. pttttth.
ok, i'm in quite a foul mood today. but the upside was that i played uno with xiaoling and it totally cheered me up. uno just makes me happy. oh we played speed too. but i'm horrible at it coz i'm such a slooooww person. haha. was fun trying to beat her and cheat though.
have been in this down mood these two days. figures, coz we're like getting back our grades and everyone is owning like shit and i'm floundering. T___T gahhhh. i mean, i've improved and all, but i don't think it's enough. i keep telling myself it doesn't matter, coz at least you're improving, and not like stagnant at the dreaded UNGRADED grade. but siiiiigh. seeing all the really high grades around me does stuff to my self esteem. oh well, let's take small baby steps to the goal. eventually we will reach there! nods.
(gosh, i talk about myself as 'we'. lol. talk about schizophrenic.)
and geee we are performing in open house. hope i'll see my little juniors. :D
rehearsals these few days. SOB. my pinky hurts. i was falling asleep while we were playing for sound check. so tiring! wait so long and then the mikes don't work/ are not switched on when we play. (and there are always extra chairs!!! ;___;)
i think hc guitar ensemble really needs ALOT of work to be at least presentable in syf next year. gosh. my first performing arts cca and we all suck. ^^"
these days i've been rather unhappy with how my mom acts in general. how she keeps nagging at my brother, scolding him, and generally blaming us for things. it's like she's always the blameless one, and even when she's in the wrong, she always has an excuse to be in the wrong. and she's always right. i hate it when people think they are doing what's good for you but are so wrapped up in their self-righteousness and don't even stop to ask you what you feel of what they're doing. or even ask you if you even want them to do it. pttttth.
ok, i'm in quite a foul mood today. but the upside was that i played uno with xiaoling and it totally cheered me up. uno just makes me happy. oh we played speed too. but i'm horrible at it coz i'm such a slooooww person. haha. was fun trying to beat her and cheat though.