Ramblings/Insomnia
I just got a pop up add on Livejournal. Weird.
Anyway, it seems insomnia has reared it's ugly head again. Guess that means AV's been sleeping enough lately that I'm not exhausted. Or it could be the nap I took on the couch from 8-10 this am. Or nerves. ugh.
Sometimes I really wish I didn't get in my own way so much. I am so sure that people don't want to talk to me or that I would be bugging them that I am afraid to make new friends, and end up losing touch with old friends that I miss desperately. :sigh: I sure hope AV is just naturally social and has good social skills. How am I supposed to teach something I can't model?
This made more sense in my head I have a feeling. And is probably sounding very whiney. Oh well.
Tomorrow am is a 'cookie exchange' with a new playgroup. That has some of the same moms as the playgroup I've been going to for a while, so it shouldn't be TOO bad. But I'm still nervous. And I know I'll just sit there and be shy and not talk, and blush like crazy and ramble when someone does talk to me. Ugh. How do people do this? Maybe I can be hypnotized to not care what other people think and just be comfortable? lol...or not
Anyway, it seems insomnia has reared it's ugly head again. Guess that means AV's been sleeping enough lately that I'm not exhausted. Or it could be the nap I took on the couch from 8-10 this am. Or nerves. ugh.
Sometimes I really wish I didn't get in my own way so much. I am so sure that people don't want to talk to me or that I would be bugging them that I am afraid to make new friends, and end up losing touch with old friends that I miss desperately. :sigh: I sure hope AV is just naturally social and has good social skills. How am I supposed to teach something I can't model?
This made more sense in my head I have a feeling. And is probably sounding very whiney. Oh well.
Tomorrow am is a 'cookie exchange' with a new playgroup. That has some of the same moms as the playgroup I've been going to for a while, so it shouldn't be TOO bad. But I'm still nervous. And I know I'll just sit there and be shy and not talk, and blush like crazy and ramble when someone does talk to me. Ugh. How do people do this? Maybe I can be hypnotized to not care what other people think and just be comfortable? lol...or not