[16.5]
I--
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To be... protected... and to worth being protected. I don't know what that means. I don't know what that means! I've always been in the one to... protect others. Itsuki made Ceasar promise he would protect me... that my worth of being protected is valued. As something as small as this, I don't understand. Am I-- I that weak where I need protection? Or... he doesn't trust me? But then I can say he does, but what do I think of that then? Like this, I feel I should be weak and give a reason to BE protected. I can be strong and stand on my feet without anyone telling me. I--
...emotions are difficult things to deal with, Karen; I'm sure you know that. It's ... we say and do things that don't make sense, but we mean the best.
Is this what I'm experiencing now? You're talking to a solider. One who doesn't have emotions. Just actions. Justifiable actions! I can't justify any of this. I can't--
I can't stay here. I can't. I have to get out of here. Anything to clear my head. Something. Anything. I feel like it's going to implode.
How can I be given a mission to sort out my emotions if I don't even know what they mean?!
I just need him to come back alive. That's it. Nothing more. I'll protect her. Arietta will be protected. I won't let anything happen to her. Just come back here in one piece, unharmed.
[[ frantic girl who doesn't know much about emotions, nonetheless experienced any of this kind is frantic. ]]
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To be... protected... and to worth being protected. I don't know what that means. I don't know what that means! I've always been in the one to... protect others. Itsuki made Ceasar promise he would protect me... that my worth of being protected is valued. As something as small as this, I don't understand. Am I-- I that weak where I need protection? Or... he doesn't trust me? But then I can say he does, but what do I think of that then? Like this, I feel I should be weak and give a reason to BE protected. I can be strong and stand on my feet without anyone telling me. I--
...emotions are difficult things to deal with, Karen; I'm sure you know that. It's ... we say and do things that don't make sense, but we mean the best.
Is this what I'm experiencing now? You're talking to a solider. One who doesn't have emotions. Just actions. Justifiable actions! I can't justify any of this. I can't--
I can't stay here. I can't. I have to get out of here. Anything to clear my head. Something. Anything. I feel like it's going to implode.
How can I be given a mission to sort out my emotions if I don't even know what they mean?!
I just need him to come back alive. That's it. Nothing more. I'll protect her. Arietta will be protected. I won't let anything happen to her. Just come back here in one piece, unharmed.
[[ frantic girl who doesn't know much about emotions, nonetheless experienced any of this kind is frantic. ]]