[15]
Would I call this place a home? That's a good question in of itself. I miss the thrill of fighting; of being back home. But once I was here, even though it's not under the greatest conditions, I like the quietness and the not-upbeat atmosphere. And to settle down for once, to think and not just act. I've... come to like it. It's strange.
One major thing that's got me going is this rumor about Itsuki and I. I never really questioned it, but I'm just going to guess it's about him and I and well... our relation to one another. Rumors are rumors. But somehow, I wanted this to keep quiet. I'm not afraid of people knowing; that's not the case. It's just that I would rather it be our secret. I feel more secure that way and... There's a word I want to use, but I can't think of it... People knowing about it and informing everyone as if its their business, makes me feel uneasy. I don't mind if the people I'm around here know, but that girl, she's informing people that I don't even know. Does she not know that people can use that information and turn it any way they want to?
Our secret huh?
I did tell him straight out how I felt. It felt strange... wanting to say something but not being sure of your own feelings. I was sure them and I'm sure now. So I told him... I love him. To be honest, I didn't think I was capable of such a thing. And he hasn't directly SAID it to me, but it's been implied so heavily and it's not like he's the straightforward kind of person anyway. I trust that he'll say it without dancing around the words. But it baffles me. I'm a solider on the field. I'm not supposed to have these emotions, nonetheless emotions at all. But this, I couldn't help. My feelings came into play and I ran with it. And... it felt great. I've never done anything of that nature before.
Chase a feeling.
I'm happy. It's been a while since I felt like this. I hope... my brother is proud of me. I do.
[[ the only reason why her encryption is so low is because she's been thinking so hard about what's been going on with her that she failed to pay attention to what the encoding was ]]
One major thing that's got me going is this rumor about Itsuki and I. I never really questioned it, but I'm just going to guess it's about him and I and well... our relation to one another. Rumors are rumors. But somehow, I wanted this to keep quiet. I'm not afraid of people knowing; that's not the case. It's just that I would rather it be our secret. I feel more secure that way and... There's a word I want to use, but I can't think of it... People knowing about it and informing everyone as if its their business, makes me feel uneasy. I don't mind if the people I'm around here know, but that girl, she's informing people that I don't even know. Does she not know that people can use that information and turn it any way they want to?
Our secret huh?
I did tell him straight out how I felt. It felt strange... wanting to say something but not being sure of your own feelings. I was sure them and I'm sure now. So I told him... I love him. To be honest, I didn't think I was capable of such a thing. And he hasn't directly SAID it to me, but it's been implied so heavily and it's not like he's the straightforward kind of person anyway. I trust that he'll say it without dancing around the words. But it baffles me. I'm a solider on the field. I'm not supposed to have these emotions, nonetheless emotions at all. But this, I couldn't help. My feelings came into play and I ran with it. And... it felt great. I've never done anything of that nature before.
Chase a feeling.
I'm happy. It's been a while since I felt like this. I hope... my brother is proud of me. I do.
[[ the only reason why her encryption is so low is because she's been thinking so hard about what's been going on with her that she failed to pay attention to what the encoding was ]]