stressed and worn down
Everything is catching up to me all at once. The pressures of working full time, doing school, being a husband, father, friend, brother, and son. Basically trying to be something to everyone all at once. I feel unappreciated, worthless, unworthy, tired, stressed, and overwhelmed. I have a lot on mind. Im trying to improve myself at work by attempting to become a supervisor which is adding more anxiety for interviews and worrying about making more money. Im trying to deal with a mortgage loan, save money, use money wisely, and I have about 9 months to figure out how im going to pay for this house. Im years away from education goals being completed. I feel i've been inatequate as a husband, neglecting as a father, and a friend to none. Somebody wants this, but another person needs that, they want me here, they want me there, they are jealous that im with that person, that person is angry that they think im ignoring them. 24 hours in a day is not long enough to meet the daily demands. Im adding an extra class in the fall, I will be paying a mortgage in December, Im likely to work 2 jobs in the summer. and this will be just the begining. Bitching gets me nowhere. I dont even have the strength to be emotional about it, I just dont care right now.