Chillin

[azcityboy]

Hello Everyone, I know my entries to my journal are getting kind of scarce. I guess I have been really busy with things. I spend my week days working and my nights trying to do homework. My weekends turn into a time to do laundry and get caught up with my fast paced life. Its getting almost impossible to keep up with it at times. Anyhow so I just got in from my friends, friend BBQ it was kind of fun. Just kind of sat around, talked had a few drinks. Of course as always theres always a couple there that makes me stop and think "gosh I wish I wasn't always alone". So I have been going over my past relationships to figure out what went wrong. It seems as though in the end there was 2 factors to my break ups. 1 I wasnt quite ready to commit to the person, 2 the person wasnt at all who they pretended to be. I seem to run across that alot. People always pretending to be someone else to impress someone they find attractive. I think maybe at one time I was like that, but at the same time I always was myself. Just went out of the way a little bit to look good to be appealing. Any how I have been the total opposite lately. I kind of do what I want for what ever makes me happy. Still single of course but doing okay at the same time. I constantly think of what I want and different people flash through my mind. I met a person not too long ago, memorial weekend to be exact. Very cool person, actually one of the best I have met in a while. Of course with my luck its either not interested, involved, or thier not sure what they want at the moment. Im not sure if its fortunate to me that they just dont know what they want or if its just a nice way of saying not interested. The few times we have hung out its been great. Always really great company someone that can tell me anything and it is all very interesting. Any how so yeah my love life is definately on the low, but I refuse to search for love or put extra actions into setting myself up to be hurt. If it comes so be it if not well maybe growing old with a best friend wouldnt be so bad. SO exciting news for the month I move out at the end of July into my new apartment. My room and I have splurged so much on new furnishings for the entire apartment. It should be really great. I expect every friend I know to show up to my first party. I am going to go for now but I will try to stay more active with my journal.

Peace
~Rick~