Home sick~
Ugh so today im home sick for the first time in a long time. My tonsils are totally swollen it kinda sux. Was feeling kinda lonely this morning cause you know it sux when your growing up. When I was younger my mom was always there for me when I was sick. Now its like until I find that special someone its just me, and it feels so lonely. I had some comforting today by a cute someone who's been on my mind alot lately. Although I seem to feel even more alone than I was before. Before I was alone and I was use to this, now I get bits of comfort and then its gone and I feel kinda out there by myself. I know ive got friends and etc., but im talking about more on an intimate, that real personal/emotional contact. Im not so sure what im doing or even what I should be doing. Im kind of confused on what would be best for me and what I really want. No one exactly writes the fine lines out for me to read. Anyways im just having a semi lame day. I think its mostly just because I dont feel well though. Hopefully I'll get better here soon. I also hope the person I like, knows I like them and has the same feelings. I'll keep on waiting I suppose and hopefully soon I won't feel so alone. So Yeah im watching Life or Something Like It. Great movie kinda depressing. I hate seeeing everyone else end up with perfect lives. hehe although they are alot older than me. So I guess it will all com in time. Im kind of out of it today to many drugs..(prescription) so I dont want to ramble to much I just kinda needed some relief and this sometimes helps. Anways im out.
Later
~Rick~
Later
~Rick~