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All I saw was a 15second glimpse of her on my television crying about how she’ll never recover
After that I scanned the papers for weeks searching for this loving mother
With another bottles warm embrace whimpering not to be scared
I was prepared at that point to taste the sea of darkness
I had the lead an plastic sheet all laid out upon my guilty carpet
My guilty TV sat flickering off sumwhere in the distance
My vision was blurry I fumbled the first time I grasped justice in my hands, I just wasn’t worthy
An it slipt an fell on the floor I stood up an fell with it
searched Franticly repeating “Take my pain away” “I don’t wanna deal with it”
right then I felt sumthin cold, it must be my justice
it was just a lil too far away to touch it
I reached so hard an far it felt like my arm had been torn apart
Its true what they say no matter how hard they look no one can see you in the dark
Its about to start the news was just coming on my guilty TV screen
I don’t wanna be seen give me justice an turn this nightmare into a dream
I stare the darkness down until it enters my eyes
Corrodes my insides repays my debt for my 1 oh so horrible crime
Then a mother wept upon my guilty TV So loud that it hurt my ears to listen
I staggered to adjust to the transition fumbled around my guilty floor in pain
Struggled to get my eyes an ears to gain perspective on this crying woman’s frame
My eyes instantly focused An I have never been more sober
I realized in that instant that this woman’s daughter had been run over
My mouth tasted like I had just swallowed death As I struggled composure
I threw my justice through my guilty TV
After that I scanned the papers for weeks desperately searching for this loving mother
An All I saw in my mind for days was that 15second glimpse of her on my Guilty TV crying about how she’d never recover
ova again for weeks on end I searched everywhere I could see
I finally found what I was looking for, finally a plan in sight to set me free
So I drove my guilty car towards the land where this mother shed her tears
I told myself this will be my last act, before I disappear
Before the night nears an the stars end before I tremble with fear an the shadows darken again
I went to her house spent two days waiting outside
I heard how she cried no one left to visit she’s all dried up inside
No more tears to shed knowing that the one she gave life to is dead
I couldn’t take it, I had to enter her life
her pain cut me down like knifes knowing there was more thunder then strife
I watched where she went then waited for her outside the only shopping centre in town I waited there all week for what she would think was a chance meeting
Constantly thinking an repeating realizing that my only attempt would be fleeting
I pretended I was new in town an asked for her name
she said “I don’t have the time so if you don’t mind I have to go back where I came”
I said “sure its alright I understand that your busy” “this world is just so crazy at times it can make people dizzy” “its just that I’m new in town an could really use a friend I don’t have a lot to offer but if you show me around I’ll show you where the stars end”
I stayed with her an we grew closer ova the next few days
Two lovers with hearts in a cage I made her happy found her shattered pieces an tried to put them back together again
An yet I never said nothing, I barely had the chance
When she was dealing with her grief I was struggling not to be torn in half
I told her that morning after another chat I told her how I was there to support her
But I also told her the truth about how I was the one driving the truck that had killed her daughter
ALL I SAW (No stars/stars end)