Crash and Burn
Whoa, just had a break down. Feel completely drained. I just started feeling trapped here in Michigan and how much I want to leave, and that led to breaking down. Plus I've had such a good few days of feeling on top of the world so of course I had to have a crash sooner or later. God, why do I have to act logically? What good has this done? I don't want to finish my spring semester here in Michigan! I don't even fucking care. I know I'm just in a bad way of thinking, but honestly why do I need to finish here?! I don't want too. I see all the logic in doing so and how it will make things easier for me to transfer with an associates, but gah. Why be logical? Why not just do things. I started freaking out because I just want to give my notice at barnes and noble and have les drive down to florida with me. Just taking some essentials until I can move totally down there. I just don't want to stay here. I know people have to do things they don't want to do, but I've been here for soooo long. I'm ready to move on. I don't want to wait until june. that will take forever. I can't even imagine making it through the spring semester. I know I need too, but it's so hard. Eh.
Sigh. I wanted to sleep so I didn't have to feel, but I'm too anxious.
Sigh. I wanted to sleep so I didn't have to feel, but I'm too anxious.