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Yep, am definitely not sleeping. I've been watching a lot of LOST, writing in my journal (over the last hour only getting a page), and yep... just being here. I'm really tired too, but I got sick of rolling around in bed feeling wide awake. Maybe I should take a hot shower or something. Hmmm.
My fourth of july kind of sucked. It was okay, but I had to work. I got time and a half though so that's a plus. I guess I'm just sad because I didn't hear from Joe. No happy fourth of july phone calls. Usually unless I call him he doesn't call me. I miss him during the week, but I can never bring myself to call him when we don't have plans to do something. I don't know why. I just never do, and he doesn't either. It's kind of sad. I wish he would call me just to tell me that he loved me and for no other reason. I wish when he saw me after a few days he'd tell me how much he's missed me or that I look really beautiful today. I really need to hear that kind of stuff... and I've told him about it, but he still hasn't caught on yet. I've tried the whole "Don't I look beautiful today?" Kind of reverse psychology effect, but I'm losing hope for that. I can only say it so many times. Besides the complete lack of complimenting skills he still is a good boyfriend. Really. It'd be so much better if he fine tuned his communicating skills though. O well. Men.
O, I would like to announce that I am once again a proud aunt. Bianca Rose Tapia was born yesterday, ironically on my dad's birthday. Ironically because sister Jocelyn and dad really DO NOT get along. Hah. Bianca is a cute name, I always liked it from that movie Ten Things I Hate About You. I liked Katerina better though. Anyway that totals four nieces and two nephews. My sisters are officially bona fide baby factories. Someday I hope to add a Sofia Marie and a William something to the lot.
I talked to my sister Jenn on the phone today for a long time. I really love her, she's very supportive. I wish we lived closer because we'd be so amazingly close. Something I've always wanted - to not be so alone. I was thinking about calling her tomorrow and see if I could go stay with her next week. Monday - thursday. I'd be insanely nervous to drive five hours to get to her house, but I think I can do it. I've driven it once before... but Joe was telling me where to go and that was stressful. Being bymyself and driving to Columbus just freaks me out. Hopefully, I can do it though. I would love to go outside and play with the kids. Go splash in the sprinkler and such. I'd bring bubbles :) God, I love those kids.
I also might have this great opportunity to work with this teacher in midland on a volunteer basis. She teaches kids with dyslexia to read. I'm really interested in doing this and Ann knows the lady. So hopefully we can set this up. I'd be grateful to Ann for introducing us and it'd be such a good learning opportunity. I love kids. I hope it works out. I hope going to see my sister works out too.
I would've loved to go to Brohman and Ludington too for the week, but there's still time to do that too. I just really want to get up to that awesome used book store in Ludington and then to go out on the beach. There is also this incredibly delicious, inexpensive restaurant with the best pancakes and strawberries ever. Yummm. Excited. Plus, I miss that Brohman air. Dad also wants to get up there sometime soon. Brohman always feels like home. Well... I better go take that shower before it gets TOO late on me.
My fourth of july kind of sucked. It was okay, but I had to work. I got time and a half though so that's a plus. I guess I'm just sad because I didn't hear from Joe. No happy fourth of july phone calls. Usually unless I call him he doesn't call me. I miss him during the week, but I can never bring myself to call him when we don't have plans to do something. I don't know why. I just never do, and he doesn't either. It's kind of sad. I wish he would call me just to tell me that he loved me and for no other reason. I wish when he saw me after a few days he'd tell me how much he's missed me or that I look really beautiful today. I really need to hear that kind of stuff... and I've told him about it, but he still hasn't caught on yet. I've tried the whole "Don't I look beautiful today?" Kind of reverse psychology effect, but I'm losing hope for that. I can only say it so many times. Besides the complete lack of complimenting skills he still is a good boyfriend. Really. It'd be so much better if he fine tuned his communicating skills though. O well. Men.
O, I would like to announce that I am once again a proud aunt. Bianca Rose Tapia was born yesterday, ironically on my dad's birthday. Ironically because sister Jocelyn and dad really DO NOT get along. Hah. Bianca is a cute name, I always liked it from that movie Ten Things I Hate About You. I liked Katerina better though. Anyway that totals four nieces and two nephews. My sisters are officially bona fide baby factories. Someday I hope to add a Sofia Marie and a William something to the lot.
I talked to my sister Jenn on the phone today for a long time. I really love her, she's very supportive. I wish we lived closer because we'd be so amazingly close. Something I've always wanted - to not be so alone. I was thinking about calling her tomorrow and see if I could go stay with her next week. Monday - thursday. I'd be insanely nervous to drive five hours to get to her house, but I think I can do it. I've driven it once before... but Joe was telling me where to go and that was stressful. Being bymyself and driving to Columbus just freaks me out. Hopefully, I can do it though. I would love to go outside and play with the kids. Go splash in the sprinkler and such. I'd bring bubbles :) God, I love those kids.
I also might have this great opportunity to work with this teacher in midland on a volunteer basis. She teaches kids with dyslexia to read. I'm really interested in doing this and Ann knows the lady. So hopefully we can set this up. I'd be grateful to Ann for introducing us and it'd be such a good learning opportunity. I love kids. I hope it works out. I hope going to see my sister works out too.
I would've loved to go to Brohman and Ludington too for the week, but there's still time to do that too. I just really want to get up to that awesome used book store in Ludington and then to go out on the beach. There is also this incredibly delicious, inexpensive restaurant with the best pancakes and strawberries ever. Yummm. Excited. Plus, I miss that Brohman air. Dad also wants to get up there sometime soon. Brohman always feels like home. Well... I better go take that shower before it gets TOO late on me.