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sudden changes in my weight make my body seem so foreign.
prior to graduation in the stress of getting together my capstone project i pretty much didnt eat. i'd returned to nearly the size i entered college at...roughly 110 lbs. post graudation, early during the summer i had a rather tramatic/dramatic breakup with my girlfriend of nearly 2 years. i don't tend to eat when i'm upset so honestly i should have been fine. just this time i was utterly inactive. and my mother pretty much tried to perk me up with junk food. 10 pounds later i ended the summer. i've lost around 5 so i'm closer to 115 not but still when i gain weight it all tends to go to one place...my boobs. i've 5'2" and now over a c cup. they are f-ing huge. they don't feel like my own. i wore this tanktop which the last time i wore was on gradation...a pretty bannana republic low black one that ties in the font in a little bow. i didn't realize until campus exactly how diffrent it looks of me now. i spent most of the day with a fleese over me when i could bare the heat otherwise i just tried to bear it. it just really made me feel so uncomfortable and icky. i need to do some clothing shopping and get some new shirts that are a bit looser to accomidate. that and get myself more active. getting <3 my bike <3 fixed would be a good start.
alright i need to go drive and find tucson water because i'm interviewing there tomorrow...i already am working for sahra now but maddock/woodard still think its worth my time to interview...i agree. they would be a good connection to have and i think i would like to work for them eventually as a summer job or something of the sorts.
xo
**azalea, top heavy
prior to graduation in the stress of getting together my capstone project i pretty much didnt eat. i'd returned to nearly the size i entered college at...roughly 110 lbs. post graudation, early during the summer i had a rather tramatic/dramatic breakup with my girlfriend of nearly 2 years. i don't tend to eat when i'm upset so honestly i should have been fine. just this time i was utterly inactive. and my mother pretty much tried to perk me up with junk food. 10 pounds later i ended the summer. i've lost around 5 so i'm closer to 115 not but still when i gain weight it all tends to go to one place...my boobs. i've 5'2" and now over a c cup. they are f-ing huge. they don't feel like my own. i wore this tanktop which the last time i wore was on gradation...a pretty bannana republic low black one that ties in the font in a little bow. i didn't realize until campus exactly how diffrent it looks of me now. i spent most of the day with a fleese over me when i could bare the heat otherwise i just tried to bear it. it just really made me feel so uncomfortable and icky. i need to do some clothing shopping and get some new shirts that are a bit looser to accomidate. that and get myself more active. getting <3 my bike <3 fixed would be a good start.
alright i need to go drive and find tucson water because i'm interviewing there tomorrow...i already am working for sahra now but maddock/woodard still think its worth my time to interview...i agree. they would be a good connection to have and i think i would like to work for them eventually as a summer job or something of the sorts.
xo
**azalea, top heavy