Its so Easy
So I discovered today on my last day of vacation that it is just way too easy to get stressed, and irritated and sad and angry and sick to my tummy. I was trying to tell myself earlier that life is too short to be stressed and my daughter is too awesome for me to be a stressed mommy, and yet; why is it too easy to get this bluh feeling about things? I want to be happy, I want to tell myself that God is Great and he will work and walk with me no matter what as long as I keep the faith. Well my faith is not unwaivering like I want it to be. I want to be able to close my eyes and pray with hearts content and KNOW that he is for me! And I fail.
Bills, bills and more bills,what can I say? I wish that I had a chance to start over then mabe things would be a little different. I have always wanted to have a magic 8 ball that showed me what life would have been like if I had done just one thing different, or two or three. Again, I dont think things are meant to be like that. Oh Ashley, life is ok, you have a wonderful most beautiful daughter to live for and who lights up your life, get over it, life goes on.
I am trying to rummage around and find some stuff here that we can sale at a gargage sale, we just dont have a whole lot really. Wish we did, but we dont. Being broke sucks and I really dont want to get a second ob, cause spending time with my daughter is worth so much more.
"sigh"
I guess Life does go on, just depends on how a person takes each day in stide.