Well...
This pretty much sums up the last 3 months so far: (including facts & thoughts)
1) He dumped me for a child so he's basically a manwhore these days, cuz she's not the only one he's seeing. That's what I've been hearing.
2) We also aren't on speaking terms. He wanted that, so I left him alone.
3) We all know he's making a big fucking mistake and he'll realize that as soon as he steps out of Iraq.. All hell will break loose and he's going to have a mid-life crisis and realize there will be no one there for him. =]
4) No one will ever treat him better like I had. Why did he leave me then? Fucked if I know.
5) I went into a manic depression & gained a few pounds, but am working out lately.
6) His sister and I are pretty close now. She's precious. <3 I don't know why he always think bad of her & his family.
7) I've read a couple of verses in the Bible lately.. Gosh I missed it. I should've kept reading it.. so maybe that way I wouldn't have let the bastard ruin my life like that.
8) My cats are both in heat so much more than I could count on the two of my hands. I wish I was in heat. :P 2 male cats have trapped both of them and pretty uhm.. much have done it. I don't think I'm going to keep them any longer. I can't take care of more more babies.
9) Considering of adopting a puppy or maybe a dog that has already been fixed, of course.
10) My lease is this CLOSE to be done ;D I have to track down the landlord at the new complex to see if I've been approved yet. Cross your fingers! <3
11) After living here for one more year, Zak and I will be gone. Out of this town for good. I think he will be old enough to get away from his roots.
12) I bumped into an ex of mine from college last night. It was GREAT seeing him again. We hung out and had a good time. =]
13) I pretty much have a stronger perspective on boys these days so now I'm extremely cautious. You'll have to send thanks to Jeremy. I personally do not believe in engagements and marriages anymore. This isn't something I'd want to go through.. and I'm nearly 28. It's pretty much too late. My dreams of that has been killed.
14) I still will have sex. <3 Without commitments. That person just will have to be that lucky. <3
15) After I lose weight back down to 130 lbs & all toned, I'll attempt to be a model again.. Nothing like runways n shit.. Just TFPs, catalogs, n stuff like that.. even hair models, hah. Anything to do to profit.. and at the same time will photograph my own. Just give me at least 5-6 months to work it down ;)
16) I've worked with a couple of animals in the area with sign language.. and got them to get along with their masters. It was sooo much fun! Some of them were rebels, and really untrained. Some masters have not been easy with them.. cuz they were being impatient. The animals wouldn't obey their commands except mine. I guess I'm just that sweet.. so I had teached some masters to do a couple of signs/gestures so that way both would be happy at the same time. Using angry/impatient tones in your voices is NOT going to get anything done. Gotta keep that in mind =]
17) In conclusion, everyone has been right. I've been warned about military boys. They're trouble.. I guess I was blind and did not see this coming. :/ *sigh* I honestly didn't want to face the truth on the fact that boys just date somebody around their age.. waiting til the right time to dump her for a kid. How in the world would they possibly think that's a great choice? Tell me that? What the hell would a guy find something better in a little (well, shes not that little.. per se) child that I don't have? A rebound? Seriously, it's sickening. So that I've been told he has fallen down to the level where his brothers are now.. I was warned that the Gardner men could never stick with a woman for a long time. I can see that now :(
Anyway, I'll write more later.. about other stuff.. Not about this. I gotta cook dinner. I havent eaten all day, bah.
1) He dumped me for a child so he's basically a manwhore these days, cuz she's not the only one he's seeing. That's what I've been hearing.
2) We also aren't on speaking terms. He wanted that, so I left him alone.
3) We all know he's making a big fucking mistake and he'll realize that as soon as he steps out of Iraq.. All hell will break loose and he's going to have a mid-life crisis and realize there will be no one there for him. =]
4) No one will ever treat him better like I had. Why did he leave me then? Fucked if I know.
5) I went into a manic depression & gained a few pounds, but am working out lately.
6) His sister and I are pretty close now. She's precious. <3 I don't know why he always think bad of her & his family.
7) I've read a couple of verses in the Bible lately.. Gosh I missed it. I should've kept reading it.. so maybe that way I wouldn't have let the bastard ruin my life like that.
8) My cats are both in heat so much more than I could count on the two of my hands. I wish I was in heat. :P 2 male cats have trapped both of them and pretty uhm.. much have done it. I don't think I'm going to keep them any longer. I can't take care of more more babies.
9) Considering of adopting a puppy or maybe a dog that has already been fixed, of course.
10) My lease is this CLOSE to be done ;D I have to track down the landlord at the new complex to see if I've been approved yet. Cross your fingers! <3
11) After living here for one more year, Zak and I will be gone. Out of this town for good. I think he will be old enough to get away from his roots.
12) I bumped into an ex of mine from college last night. It was GREAT seeing him again. We hung out and had a good time. =]
13) I pretty much have a stronger perspective on boys these days so now I'm extremely cautious. You'll have to send thanks to Jeremy. I personally do not believe in engagements and marriages anymore. This isn't something I'd want to go through.. and I'm nearly 28. It's pretty much too late. My dreams of that has been killed.
14) I still will have sex. <3 Without commitments. That person just will have to be that lucky. <3
15) After I lose weight back down to 130 lbs & all toned, I'll attempt to be a model again.. Nothing like runways n shit.. Just TFPs, catalogs, n stuff like that.. even hair models, hah. Anything to do to profit.. and at the same time will photograph my own. Just give me at least 5-6 months to work it down ;)
16) I've worked with a couple of animals in the area with sign language.. and got them to get along with their masters. It was sooo much fun! Some of them were rebels, and really untrained. Some masters have not been easy with them.. cuz they were being impatient. The animals wouldn't obey their commands except mine. I guess I'm just that sweet.. so I had teached some masters to do a couple of signs/gestures so that way both would be happy at the same time. Using angry/impatient tones in your voices is NOT going to get anything done. Gotta keep that in mind =]
17) In conclusion, everyone has been right. I've been warned about military boys. They're trouble.. I guess I was blind and did not see this coming. :/ *sigh* I honestly didn't want to face the truth on the fact that boys just date somebody around their age.. waiting til the right time to dump her for a kid. How in the world would they possibly think that's a great choice? Tell me that? What the hell would a guy find something better in a little (well, shes not that little.. per se) child that I don't have? A rebound? Seriously, it's sickening. So that I've been told he has fallen down to the level where his brothers are now.. I was warned that the Gardner men could never stick with a woman for a long time. I can see that now :(
Anyway, I'll write more later.. about other stuff.. Not about this. I gotta cook dinner. I havent eaten all day, bah.