Just because...
(EDIT: After looking through these journals, I've been receiving daily headaches for the better part of a month and a half, fun times!)
Just because I haven't been on IM much at all, most of you probably think I'm pissed off at you and don't want to talk to you.
The opposite is true, I'd love to talk to people, more so than I probably should at times.
Recently, as you should know, I have been dealing with daily headaches. Some days they're tolerable and I just notice them, growl, and go on with my life. Some days they're so strong and painful that I stop thinking correctly, mess up my work, and become extremely unproductive (did we mention grouchy?) In an effort to find out what is causing these headaches, be it stress, diet, exercise, etc., I am testing many methods to see what could be contributing factors.
One of these methods is trying to see if too much social interaction / demanding of an online presence is causing some of these headaches. At first it seemed like it did, but then they kicked back up and hurt even more so, which leads me to believe that not being online IM affected very little.
Aside from the headaches, which have been going on for three weeks straight, things are ok. I'm mentally gearing myself up for the move, though I should be physically doing so (i.e gathering crap ready and packing). These moves always suck for me, with the low point being specifically where I look into an empty room that I once inhabited, do the final check over, close the door, and leave. You'd think after about 15+ times I'd be used to it... nope.
Money has been coming in quite fine and I've been enough of a stingy bastard to save up to pad at least 4-5 months of living in the new apartment without a job, and this is counting for $100 in gas and $100 in food every month, though I doubt I'll be spending that much on either. Over-budget, they say.
I know this move will do me wonders, or at least, open the door for me to accept many different things to occupy my time and bring forth some happiness. I'm sure Maine has, from time to time, however I keep closing the door shut. I blame Left 4 Dead 2 and the weather.
My biggest concern is that after I do the move, I'm going to close those doors just like I did before, and I won't be happy, and the move will have just placed my moodiness, headaches, and general homebody behavior in a different state. I'm really hoping I don't find myself sinking back into that rhythmn, that I'll actually want to get out and explore stuff with friends and see new things, learn new things, etc. That way I'll actually TREASURE the time spent on the computer, and not see it as my catch-all.
I should get on IM more often, that might help me deal with some of these headaches.
And yes, I'm still eating hot dogs occasionally ;)
Just because I haven't been on IM much at all, most of you probably think I'm pissed off at you and don't want to talk to you.
The opposite is true, I'd love to talk to people, more so than I probably should at times.
Recently, as you should know, I have been dealing with daily headaches. Some days they're tolerable and I just notice them, growl, and go on with my life. Some days they're so strong and painful that I stop thinking correctly, mess up my work, and become extremely unproductive (did we mention grouchy?) In an effort to find out what is causing these headaches, be it stress, diet, exercise, etc., I am testing many methods to see what could be contributing factors.
One of these methods is trying to see if too much social interaction / demanding of an online presence is causing some of these headaches. At first it seemed like it did, but then they kicked back up and hurt even more so, which leads me to believe that not being online IM affected very little.
Aside from the headaches, which have been going on for three weeks straight, things are ok. I'm mentally gearing myself up for the move, though I should be physically doing so (i.e gathering crap ready and packing). These moves always suck for me, with the low point being specifically where I look into an empty room that I once inhabited, do the final check over, close the door, and leave. You'd think after about 15+ times I'd be used to it... nope.
Money has been coming in quite fine and I've been enough of a stingy bastard to save up to pad at least 4-5 months of living in the new apartment without a job, and this is counting for $100 in gas and $100 in food every month, though I doubt I'll be spending that much on either. Over-budget, they say.
I know this move will do me wonders, or at least, open the door for me to accept many different things to occupy my time and bring forth some happiness. I'm sure Maine has, from time to time, however I keep closing the door shut. I blame Left 4 Dead 2 and the weather.
My biggest concern is that after I do the move, I'm going to close those doors just like I did before, and I won't be happy, and the move will have just placed my moodiness, headaches, and general homebody behavior in a different state. I'm really hoping I don't find myself sinking back into that rhythmn, that I'll actually want to get out and explore stuff with friends and see new things, learn new things, etc. That way I'll actually TREASURE the time spent on the computer, and not see it as my catch-all.
I should get on IM more often, that might help me deal with some of these headaches.
And yes, I'm still eating hot dogs occasionally ;)