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just something to remember before you're in my space, my home:
you love *me and i am important to *you BECAUSE I LOVE YOU.
you need that from someone, unconditionally, always. and i am that person for you.
and while that might sometimes suck for me and make me bitter, i have been and am willing to care and hope for good things for you.
you're like a wayward child in my head these days, a prodigal son. and i do mean the maternal and creation metaphors, i do intend them. i at least gave birth to the you i believe in, the truths i've told myself: you are, in part, a creation of mine and that's what i keep with me, that's what makes this okay for me.
you use me. it's okay: i invent you so i can keep loving you so that someone will.
it just keeps going on and on.
you love *me and i am important to *you BECAUSE I LOVE YOU.
you need that from someone, unconditionally, always. and i am that person for you.
and while that might sometimes suck for me and make me bitter, i have been and am willing to care and hope for good things for you.
you're like a wayward child in my head these days, a prodigal son. and i do mean the maternal and creation metaphors, i do intend them. i at least gave birth to the you i believe in, the truths i've told myself: you are, in part, a creation of mine and that's what i keep with me, that's what makes this okay for me.
you use me. it's okay: i invent you so i can keep loving you so that someone will.
it just keeps going on and on.