Trying to remain positive
I managed to get Katie to blow up at me yesterday. First time she's actually done it with her voice, usually it's been over the internet. Not that either are good things. I think I must be making a big mistake, as far as this entire issue goes... I guess I've just not been positive enough about it. I'm trying... it's really hard. Any normal person would probably have given up by now, but as hard as it is, I CAN'T give up, something's keeping me from it. My feelings for her are much stronger than I guess even I realized. I won't give up on her, unless, maybe, she gives up on me.
I just need something to help keep me positive, but I don't know what it is. Everything that happens and lots of what she says (especially when she gets angry at me) seems so negative and seems to point toward the idea that she just doesn't like me anymore and doesn't want to be with me anymore, which is the second most negative thing I can think of at the moment. The first would be that she isn't happy, and it kinda points toward that, too - she isn't happy WITH ME. If she could say something to get rid of that doubt, that insecurity about whether or not she even wants me around at ALL, my job would be a lot easier.
But ... even if that doesn't happen I still have to remain positive. HAVE TO.
I just need something to help keep me positive, but I don't know what it is. Everything that happens and lots of what she says (especially when she gets angry at me) seems so negative and seems to point toward the idea that she just doesn't like me anymore and doesn't want to be with me anymore, which is the second most negative thing I can think of at the moment. The first would be that she isn't happy, and it kinda points toward that, too - she isn't happy WITH ME. If she could say something to get rid of that doubt, that insecurity about whether or not she even wants me around at ALL, my job would be a lot easier.
But ... even if that doesn't happen I still have to remain positive. HAVE TO.