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i feel like i have a hangover, but i haven't had more than a few sips of wine.
i know it's stress.
there is serious family drama.
and i haven't told anyone.
except today i just dumped it all on ben.
i am so inconsiderate.
i just needed to tell someone, but i told him.
why him?
i have no idea.
because we were talking.
that is literally the only answer i have.
he didn't ask, i just told.
and i can't just talk to him anymore.
like i used to, obviously.
but now, it's not the same.
i know he doesn't care, why should he?
but for some reason there's comfort in telling him.
i know he won't press the matter.
i can tell him and then it'll be over.
why did i tell him?
i feel like a bitch, i'm always just dumping everything on him and it's inconsiderate and horrible and i should just go to hell.
i know it's stress.
there is serious family drama.
and i haven't told anyone.
except today i just dumped it all on ben.
i am so inconsiderate.
i just needed to tell someone, but i told him.
why him?
i have no idea.
because we were talking.
that is literally the only answer i have.
he didn't ask, i just told.
and i can't just talk to him anymore.
like i used to, obviously.
but now, it's not the same.
i know he doesn't care, why should he?
but for some reason there's comfort in telling him.
i know he won't press the matter.
i can tell him and then it'll be over.
why did i tell him?
i feel like a bitch, i'm always just dumping everything on him and it's inconsiderate and horrible and i should just go to hell.