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unfortunately there is no catching up here -- i'm so far beyond that. these past few weeks have been spent trying to kill the rat in my brain, or the star that lets it live.
sometimes i am so set on the idea that everything and everyone is wrong. but wishful thinking is so faulty and the more this plays out the more i am starting to believe that it is only me.
i am so lonely and so needy and it is almost christmas and i am just another stupid fucking emo kid. oh, my god, the tears are hitting the keyboard ... and my heart hurts, and jesus doesnt want me for a sunbeam, and the dog ate my homework, teacher, but it forgot to eat me.
[and i guess that is it. i only end up making myself nauseous. sorry, man]
sometimes i am so set on the idea that everything and everyone is wrong. but wishful thinking is so faulty and the more this plays out the more i am starting to believe that it is only me.
i am so lonely and so needy and it is almost christmas and i am just another stupid fucking emo kid. oh, my god, the tears are hitting the keyboard ... and my heart hurts, and jesus doesnt want me for a sunbeam, and the dog ate my homework, teacher, but it forgot to eat me.
[and i guess that is it. i only end up making myself nauseous. sorry, man]