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so last night i got really sick and had an asthma attack and wound up in the hospital for four hours. i felt like such an asshole for ruining new years for john and i, and i cried a lot. i wish i had just gotten a hotel room, then i wouldn't have gotten sick. when i woke up this morning, i had another asthma attack, and a panic attack. my momma brought me to the hospital and they gave me more treatments and steriods. i passed out a few times from the lack of oxygen in my bood. i'm finally home after four hours and i'm so fucking exhausted. i have to use a nebulizer to help me breathe about five times a day for a long time, and they gave me three other medications. i'm all sorts of fucked up right now =/ what a great way to ring in the new years! ...not =(
now i'm going to lay on the couch, watch movies all night, and take my medication.
ps. i quit smoking.
again.
for real this time.
now i'm going to lay on the couch, watch movies all night, and take my medication.
ps. i quit smoking.
again.
for real this time.