I almost feel like...
... if I'm not occupied, that I should be. I don't think that's healthy.
I felt rather lost today. It's around that time of year where Christmas thoughts enter the brains. And I realized that I will be spending this Christmas alone. Its really odd... To think only of myself once more. I feel like I should be doing at lot more for other people to fill up my time and in some ways, I have been doing that. Perhaps I need more time for myself just to think things through. Maybe the time off I'll have after classes and exams finish will allow me to do just that... Or I'll end up occupying myself with the next project and never think about things again.
It's odd. It's been... Almost 3 months. In some ways, it feels like my life is no different other than having one less person to talk to and occupy my time with. In others... I'm still figuring all those bits out. Like no company for the holidays.
I felt rather lost today. It's around that time of year where Christmas thoughts enter the brains. And I realized that I will be spending this Christmas alone. Its really odd... To think only of myself once more. I feel like I should be doing at lot more for other people to fill up my time and in some ways, I have been doing that. Perhaps I need more time for myself just to think things through. Maybe the time off I'll have after classes and exams finish will allow me to do just that... Or I'll end up occupying myself with the next project and never think about things again.
It's odd. It's been... Almost 3 months. In some ways, it feels like my life is no different other than having one less person to talk to and occupy my time with. In others... I'm still figuring all those bits out. Like no company for the holidays.