hi all...
hi guys. i'm sittin in third with erin. my b-day's sunday and i finally get to turn 18 and im gonna buy her 10 cartons of smokes and make her smoke em all until she gets cancer, then we're gonna cut it out and sell it to terrorists who don't know that it's not smallpox and become millionaires... so yeah, turn 18, become a milloinaire from other's pain; human's have done it for centuries and the newest installment.... REALITY TV!! don't you just love emotional distress? well, you're a sick fuck. i've been having these really weird dreams lately... one i had in psychology the other day: there was skin and there was a needle and it was breaking the skin, then, when it started to bleed, i woke up. i don't get it... but i read up in my dream dictionary and all and it said that what's making me physically sick is the emotional distress i'm having. i can't sleep, i'll wake up at like three in the mornin for no apparent reason and puke for a couple of hours then go back to bed, only to lie and stare at the ceiling until my alarm clock goes off. i can't eat either, bc every time i eat i get sick too. i don't know what the hell is wrong with me, but i reckon i'll live. and fuck it all if i dont't. i'm just so worried about a friend that i have that's having really big emotional trouble right now and he keeps cutting himself and threating to kill himself. he's already killed his pets and it's actually kinda sick, but i dunno what to do about him. his gf and him keep fighting and it's just like he won't fucking see how unhapppy he is with and unhappy she is with him and it's all his fault, but he won't open his goddam eyes!! he's just so possessive and when someone tries to help him and tell him not to do that shit and be his friend, he feels like you're telling hi mhow to live his life and like i said, he's really possessive and when you tell him not to cut himself or get so upset, he looks at it as you're trying to run his life and take the control away from him and he gets worse. he acts like he wants help, but when you try to give it to him, he turns himself away... i just dunno what to do about him. and it's killing me.