Shades (FINAL)

[ayeengie]

CHAPTER THIRTY-TWO - GAME OVER

Jongwoon and he sit next to each other in silence, waiting for one of the policemen to come out and talk to them. Minutes had passed and Eunhyuk arrived with their family lawyer, immediately approaching the head officer to talk about the details of the case.

Is it really over now? He thought it was too fast. The culprits were caught without much effort. He had expected some fights here and there, but there was none. There was no thrill just like what he sees in the movies.

He sighs heavily. He had watched too much of Kyuhyun’s violent computer games for him to think this way. That, or he just misses Kyuhyun too much. Just by thinking that the case is now solved makes him want to run to his lover and be in his lanky arms.

Subconsciously, he wraps his own arms around his torso and closes his eyes, imagining that it is Kyuhyun hugging him, that it is Kyuhyun tenderly stroking his arms for comfort. He misses the warmth of Kyuhyun’s body. He misses the scent of Kyuhyun’s manly perfume, but now he could only feel the cold blanket covered on his boyfriend’s lower body and he could only smell the chemicals in the hospital.

He misses Kyuhyun’s eyes staring lovingly at him. He misses those hot touches that never failed to make him shiver in pleasure and excitement. How he wishes that when he comes back, the first thing that would welcome him are the lively pair of beautiful orbs looking at him happily.

Thinking Eunhyuk can handle this now, he prepares to stand up; however, hearing Jongwoon calling his name stops him from moving. He actually forgot that the older is with him.

“I’m sorry I didn’t tell him I was involved,” Jongwoon looks down and fiddles with his fingers. “I guess I’m still selfish, after all… I… I don’t want him to hate me…” the singer admits, his voice soft.

He understands his hyung. We are all about image nowadays, especially when it comes to our loved one. As for Jongwoon’s case, he had already left Siwon alone for studies, which he thinks is plain stupid, now that Siwon had accepted him with wide arms, he couldn’t afford hurting the man once again. Probably, Jongwoon is thinking of making it up to his former lover.

“I feel like I didn’t help at all…” Jongwoon whispers, his head still hung low.

Hearing this, he opens his eyes wide in surprise. Jongwoon helped a lot. He did not gather evidence against Siwon or ask him to surrender, their plan wasn’t followed because of him, yet, Jongwoon didn’t know how much his mere presence helped.

In order for someone not to hear their talk, he leans closer to his hyung and holds the singer’s hand, whispering, “If you weren’t there, Siwon might have fought back,” he smiles gently when Jongwoon finally raises his head and looks at him with teary eyes. “But because he was protecting you, he decided not to resort to violence.”

Jongwoon stares at him for a while, as if trying to decipher each word, before he breaks out smiling lightly. “Thank you, Min.”

He smiles back, relieved that he had somehow eased Jongwoon’s worries. He’s not used to seeing this weak side of his strong and manly hyung. He’s not yet even over with the thought that Jongwoon had a boyfriend like Siwon - and his hyung obviously bottomed. He remembers something.

“Oh, hey, c-can I ask you something personal?” it’s now his turn to look down and fiddle with his fingers.

He hears a deep chuckle from the older, making him blush. “You want to know who do I like more, if you or Siwon?”

The question makes him feel more flushed. “I-I was supposed to ask if you still love Siwon…” he retorts with protruding lips.

His pout deepens as Jongwoon laughs a bit loudly. “To be honest, I thought I already forgot about him when I liked you. But when I saw him again, I don’t know, everything went back to me.”

A sigh escapes his lips. Should he be happy that Jongwoon’s diverting those feelings for him to Siwon? Or should he be afraid for his hyung because he’s falling again for a criminal?

“Are you going to stay here? I have to go back to the hospital.” He asks his hyung, who presses his lips together and nods slowly. “I’ll make sure first Siwon is already settled in this jail then I’ll bring him his clothes from his house.”

He can’t help but stare at his hyung in pity. This must have been hard for him. After years of not seeing each other, the other one was immediately taken away from him. They weren’t even able to talk more about them. There was no closure, or if they will start anew. “Hyung, I want to forgive Siwon-ssi, but, after what he’s done to me and Kyuhyun, I don’t think I could-”

“I know, it’s alright. I’m apologizing on his behalf.” Jongwoon quickly answers, his eyes fixed on the wall in front of them blankly.

“Y-You don’t have to.” The sudden change of Jongwoon’s mood surprises him, and in all honesty, it kind of scares him.

“I believe I’m the reason why he turned out to be like that.” The blankness on Jongwoon’s face worries him. He just convinces himself to think that maybe Jongwoon is just tired.

So as not to continue any conversation with Jongwoon, he stands up and awkwardly pats his hyung’s shoulder. “Take care of yourself, hyung.”

“Take care, too, Ming. I’ll pray for Kyuhyun-ssi’s recovery.”

The response makes him smile brightly; at least Jongwoon is still concerned of Kyuhyun. He hesitates leaving, for it feels like they won’t see each other that much from now on. And so, before he leaves, he pulls his hyung for a long hug, expressing his gratitude and apology through it.

~0~

People were so busy when he came back to the hospital. He wasn’t even able to stay with Kyuhyun because Ryeowook informed him that Kyuhyun was to be transferred back to Busan so their family doctors could look after him.

Indeed, his day is long and tiring, that while in the airplane when his back touched the backseat, he immediately falls into deep slumber. As usual, Kyuhyun is in his dream.

Donghae woke him up after an hour, telling him that they’ve arrived at Busan. They headed straight to the hospital, and he has never been happier to see Victoria waiting for him inside.

Said woman runs towards him and envelopes him in a tight hug, to which he responds while letting tears flow from his eyes. The comfort a mother could give can never be compared to anyone. He needed his mom; he needed the words of reassurance from the person who gave birth to him.

“Baby, how are you? How is Kyuhyun?” Victoria asks while cupping his cheeks and inspects his face.

He wipes his tears and nods as Victoria pulls him to sit down on one of the hospital benches outside Kyuhyun’s room. “I’m fine, umma. Kyuhyun… Kyuhyun is still unconscious…” He bites his trembling lower lip, the thought that Kyuhyun is still not okay is sinking in him again.

The woman sighs and rubs his back, whispering, “He’ll survive. Trust him.”

Trust… it was what lacked their relationship for everything to lead to this. They didn’t trust each other enough. But now he wills himself to put his whole trust to Kyuhyun - for the man to fight for his life and the both of them - and trust to himself - for him to stay strong while trusting Kyuhyun. They still have to fix things between the two of them, so Kyuhyun is not allowed to leave him.

They still have to finish their future house. They still have to play Starcraft together. They still have to travel the world. They still have to bully Donghae and Eunhyuk. They still have to adopt Sandeul. They still have to attend Eunhyuk and Donghae’s wedding. Of course, they still have to attend their own wedding.

“I will…”

~0~

He silently enters the room, smiling a bit as he stare at the peacefully sleeping young CEO. He strides towards the bed, sitting on the chair beside it. He takes the patient’s hand and entwines their fingers together. Call him delusional but he thinks their hands fit for each other. Their hands are perfectly made to hold one another. Hell, he even thinks their heights are made that way so Kyuhyun can kiss his forehead effortlessly.

He loves Kyuhyun. God, he loves Kyuhyun more than anything else. His chest and brain will explode just by thinking of how much he loves the man. He doesn’t care that they haven’t known each other for months. Can love be measured by the length of time you know each other? No. When you love someone, you love him. As long as they are not stepping on someone, there is nothing wrong with this.

Heechul said that he should always talk to Kyuhyun, even if the man will not reply, but Kyuhyun could hear him. Kyuhyun may think that he was dreaming, but making Kyuhyun think and listen can help a lot in his recovery.

“Hey, Kyu, how are you?” he starts awkwardly. It is the first time he’s doing this. For the first days, all he did was cry and stare at Kyuhyun. He’d never attempted to talk to Kyuhyun. “Y-You look paler,” He’ll just imagine Kyuhyun is awake and is looking at him.

“I’m sorry I haven’t talked to you these past days. I’ve been busy with your case. Anyway, are you dreaming right now? Is it good or bad? Do you dream of me? Because I dream of you…” he looks down on their hands, his thumb rubbing the back of Kyuhyun’s hand. “…every night…” he whispers softly. He’s slowly getting comfortable.

Tears start pooling on his eyes but he clears his throat and sits straight, glancing at the ceiling for a moment before looking back at the sleeping man. “You know, the suspects are now caught. The court declared them guilty. Who would have thought Siwon is Jongwoon-hyung’s ex? Oh, and don’t get jealous of Jongwoon-hyung now, okay? He likes Siwon more. But… I kind of pity the two of them… they haven’t seen each other for years and when they finally did, they were separated again. If only you saw how Siwon protected hyung… but meh, you’re cold-hearted,” he pouts at the unconscious man. He imagines the mischievous grin that should be on Kyuhyun’s face after saying the last part.

“I hope you didn’t hit your head too hard. I don’t want you to have amnesia because I will really bang your head to the hardest wall until you remember me. I’m not joking. You know how strong I am, right?” he continues, playfully narrowing his eyes at Kyuhyun.

But then, after a short pause, his gaze softens, as well as his tone. “Have I already said that I love your eyes? I want to see those again… to see those staring at me. I want to see you seducing me using those,” he lightly chuckles at the perverted thought. He’s now sexually frustrated.

“God, baby, I miss you. Please wake up now…” He takes a deep breath before lifting Kyuhyun’s hand to his lips. “I love you…”

This time, he didn’t stop his tears from spilling.

~0~

Bad news: One month has passed and Kyuhyun is still not waking up.

Changmin gained consciousness two weeks prior since he had lesser damages than his boss. This sent the pilot to depression because he did not do his job in protecting his employer, especially after knowing that Kyuhyun is still unconscious.

Good news: Kyuhyun is slowly recovering. The internal wounds are healing and Kyuhyun’s stats are getting back to normal.

However, it still doesn’t make him feel relieved. He forced himself to go to work no matter how stressed he is for the past month. His bosses, knowing his relationship with Kyuhyun, tells him to take a break, but he thinks that his work serves as his distraction so he didn’t listen.

For one month, his routine was to wake up in the hospital then go to work, and then go back to the hospital. Donghae, being the good friend he is, always drop by to accompany him and bring him clothes. Leeteuk also visits every day and gives him tea that could serve as an energizer. Sometimes, he goes to the orphanage because Sandeul makes him happy even just for a while.

He’s exhausted and now looking like a panda because of the eyebags, but he’ll endure this for Kyuhyun. Kyuhyun needs him by his side, so he’ll stay beside him all the time.

He throws himself on his chair, stretching his arms and legs. A meeting about the newest novel they will publish has just finished and his head is spinning due to information overload. Thinking that a short nap would not hurt, he sits comfortably and closes his eyes; however, his phone rings in quite an annoying loud volume.

He lazily picks his phone up and presses it on his ear, grumpily answering, “Hello??” He rarely gets some sleep and then someone dared disturb his rest time.

“M-Min…” Donghae’s worried voice is what he hears first. His chest constricts. Hopefully what he thinks isn’t happening.

“W-What?”

“Min… Kyuhyun-ssi…”

He slams his hand down the desk and stands up. He’s getting annoyed; why won’t Donghae say it properly? “What? What happened?”

Donghae pauses and stutters, “H-He… c-come here…”

That is the cue. He grabs his coat and rushes to his car. He steps on the accelerator to its maximum, his whole body shivering in fear. He ignores the angry honking of the cars he passes by; all he could think of is to reach Kyuhyun’s side as fast as possible.

Why should this have to happen now? Why should this happen when he has to focus on a big project? How could he work after this? How could he live after this?

“Oh my god, Kyu, I thought you’re fighting?” he cries to no one as tears continuously falling on his cheeks. He thought no one should surrender. He thought they will trust each other and fight.

No, no, no… he chants in his mind while shaking his head. He still hasn’t allowed Kyuhyun to leave him. No, not yet. He still doesn’t know how to play Starcraft. He isn’t still publishing his own book, and Kyuhyun should be the first one to see it.

The sobs grow louder once he reaches the hospital. His vision gets blurry because of tears. He already forgot where he should go. He forgot why he is here. He forgot who these people around him are. His hearing gets more sensitive for he could hear dozens of various sounds surrounding him. He doesn’t know where to focus. He doesn’t know which is which.

He whips his head left and right while running, desperate in trying to remember his destination. Besides, why would he even search for his destination when he has now no one to go there with? Why would he even search if he has no inspiration and motivation to go on?

Then, he hears crying somewhere near him. He turns around, and sees a couple of nurses pushing a stretched bed with a body on it, covered in white cloth. He gasps and covers his mouth as feels his heart dropping to the ground after realizing the body is as tall as Kyuhyun, and the curly brown hair peeking from the cloth is enough to send him wailing.

“Wait…” he weakly utters, but no one heard him. He fixes his gaze on the immobile body on the bed and follows it without thinking. “Wait…”

But his view of the body is blocked by the door to the morgue.

Why didn’t he wait for him? Why did he just have to leave that fast? Was Kyuhyun that excited? They didn’t even wait for him to see Kyuhyun for the last time. Why are they so harsh to him? Why-

“Min?”

He looks to his left and sees Eunhyuk staring at him curiously.

It confuses him; why isn’t Eunhyuk crying? Doesn’t Kyuhyun matter to the older?

“What are you doing here? And why are you crying?” Eunhyuk inquires while wiping his tears and looking at him in worry. It makes him dizzy.

“K-Kyuhyun…” he mumbles.

“Kyuhyun?” Eunhyuk’s eyes narrow (it looks like he has his eyes closed) before it suddenly opens a bit wide. “Min, his room is at the other side! Have you already forgotten about it? Geez, too much working caused that!”

He frowns at Eunhyuk a bit; still trying to digest what the other is talking about. Isn’t that Kyuhyun inside the morgue?

Eunhyuk holds his shoulders and leads him to the opposite corridor, asking him if he was here because of Donghae’s call and all other things that didn’t register in him because he’s still in his confused state.

Eunhyuk keeps on talking until they have reached Kyuhyun’s room: Room 137 - it says. He now remembers Kyuhyun’s room number. His eyes turn as wide as saucers after Eunhyuk opened the door, revealing Kyuhyun who is still lying on his bed.

He’s breathing. The machine is still beeping. He’s breathing. He’s breathing. H-He…

He runs towards Kyuhyun, immediately holding the younger’s hand so tight that it might stop the circulation of blood in it.

“Minnie?” he hears Kyuhyun call him. Kyuhyun’s eyes are still closed, but his lips moved when he spoke. “Minnie, is that already you? Kyuhyun whispers hoarsely, having not to have spoken for a month.

Sobbing hard, he tackles Kyuhyun to a hug, crying, “Yes! Yes! This is Minnie, Kyu! Oh, thank God you’re finally awake!!”

As he feels two hands touch his back, he pulls away to look at Kyuhyun, smiling widely while the brunet slowly opens his eyes. They exchange relieved smiles for a while, before he broke it and hugs Kyuhyun again, never letting go.

He thought it was the end of their love story. He thought he will not see Kyuhyun anymore. He thought he will be alone. He thought Kyuhyun left him.

“I saw Sungmin crying outside. Hmm… and it was in front of the morgue?” Eunhyuk comments from behind, earning soft gasps from the other people in the room.

“Oops,” they hear Donghae mumble.

He shortly let go of the hug to look at Donghae, who is now hiding behind his fiancé with a sheepish grin. Donghae hugs Eunhyuk’s waist tight when he glares at his best friend.

“I-I was about to tell you he’s gaining consciousness but I don’t know how to say it, so-”

Leeteuk speaks next, a small smile is on his beautiful face. “Kyuhyunnie didn’t want to open his eyes because you weren’t here, so we asked Hae to call you. I guess it was a wrong decision.” It earns amused chuckles from the others, except for him, of course.

Pouting, Donghae reasons, “I panicked, okay?!”

He strangles Donghae.

~0~

Everything went fine after that. Eunhyuk and Donghae are still the horniest couple I know. They decided to live together since I’ll be staying with Kyuhyun permanently. Besides, they need it to know each other more before they tie the knot. They constantly move from one place to another because of Donghae’s job. I still haven’t forgiven Donghae for the incident, by the way.

Kangin and Leeteuk are still my ideal couple. They built a clinic for Leeteuk which can also cater to the less fortunate people in Busan. The Kim couple engaged themselves more in charity events. Heechul is still Kyuhyun’s psychiatrist, but he also insists to be Eunhyuk’s because of, you know, the abnormal sexual attitude of his towards his fiancé. The doctor has taken a liking on my best friend so he doesn’t want to put him under his therapy. He’d rather have Eunhyuk suffer. After all, he tops.

Guess what, umma is miraculously pregnant! Miracle, cos hey, she’s almost fifty. I’m sure she’ll name my baby sibling as something miracle-ish, but she should always watch for her health because carrying a baby in her age is critical. Nichkhun is probably the happiest man on Earth right now. Joon appa, on the other hand, is fine. He’s very happy to hear that umma is pregnant. He continued hanging out with Jongwoon-hyung’s appa, playing chess all day long. It was boring, but he’ll survive. I tell him always to get a love life, but he covers his ears because another woman in his life for him would cause him stress. Geez.

Ryeowook went back to Taiwan to resume his chef celebrity projects. He had confessed to Jongwoon-hyung. Hyung thanked him, of course, but said he’s not yet ready to love someone new, to which Ryeowookie accepted. They remain friends and still kept their contact. But I think Ryeowookie’s getting close to Henry? You know, Hae’s younger brother? Wookie told me he accidentally met Henry in Taiwan and then they became friends. It looks like Henry isn’t saying anything for Hae was just as clueless as I am. Well, whatever makes them happy.

Jongwoon-hyung visits Siwon once a month; whenever he has long vacancies in his schedule, he makes sure to stay longer, disguised. His albums have reached Japan and it tops the charts consistently. He’s currently the most sought-after soloist in Korea, and I’m so proud of him. I buy all of his albums, you know. Whenever I will play one, Kyuhyun will transform to a talkative ahjumma. They never really had this ‘closure’ if that’s how you could call it. I’m used to it.

We didn’t have the chance to go see Siwon for I might kill him on the spot. Of course Kyuhyun doesn’t want me replacing Siwon in the jail.

Zhou Mi… well, the guy once appeared on our doorstep and apologized to me and Kyuhyun. It was kind of nice; seeing the person whom you considered as a rival saying sorry to you (and almost bowing on your feet). I feel like I won the lottery. Apparently, I still can’t forgive him that fast. I’m not a saint. Though, I can’t deny I can somehow thank the Chinese for introducing the Dom-Sub thing to Kyuhyun, for he wouldn’t have asked me to be his Submissive. I don’t really know if Kyuhyun did forgive Zhou Mi since we haven’t talked about it. It’s like a taboo to us.

Then again, if we were really meant for each other, we will definitely meet in a different way.

One achievement I could brag about is that I managed to convince Kyuhyun to adopt Sandeul hehe. It was difficult, at first, and it took me days to pester him and make a drama (because my aegyo isn’t working to him anymore) but because he loves me, he surrendered and agreed when I almost cried! Hihi.

Sandeul and Kyuhyun still hate each other, though. But I think they’re trying to get along with each other because of me, or because they realized that they’re living together from now on. I once saw Kyuhyun teaching little Sandeul how to play Starcraft. Of course the baby is not yet a year old, so he just stared at the monitor. Kyuhyun had fun “teaching,” anyway. Oh, and I once beat Kyuhyun in Starcraft! Hah!

The funniest part in having Sandeul was that I saw how Kyuhyun struggled on preparing milk, feeding Sandeul, bathing, changing clothes, cleaning the poop, and singing for him to sleep. I would always hear his whines, as well as Sandeul’s, because the baby hated how Kyuhyun took care of him at first. It was so cute of Kyuhyun!

We have already transferred to our dream house. It was completed after almost a year, and Sandeul was actually more pleased than the both of us. Finally, we were able to get out from that place that witnessed the problems we have encountered. Now, we will create new and happier memories in this new home which we could call as ours.

I can say that Kyuhyun and I are getting stronger. After his accident, I always let him know how much I love him, for I am afraid that something bad might happen again, and I will regret not letting him feel it. We still have our ups and downs, but we always make sure to solve it before the day ends.

After one more month of staying in the hospital, Kyuhyun immediately went back to work, no matter how much I protested against it. Donghae often calls us the ‘workaholic couple’ because according to him, we always want to work. Am I really workaholic?

As expected, he managed to bring back the sales rating of his companies at his comeback. He learned to establish a nice relationship with his fellow businessmen, thus building a friendly competition in the market. Though, there are still some people he just can’t get along with.

Also, Kyuhyun won as the Man of the Year and as The Youngest Billionaire by some business organization! Proud wifey here.

I stayed in the publishing house (which Kyuhyun owns; he refuses for me to transfer to another company) and is currently working on my first novel. It was inspired by our love story. I just changed the names and what they do for a living, and removed the Dom-Sub contract. It is a story of two men of different personalities and perspectives in life, living in different worlds, but is brought together by the issues of their past, and by those things called love and fate. I will make my readers believe in destiny. I will make them believe that we are made this way because it will perfectly complement the person destined for us. Our imperfections will be filled by our other half. I will make them trust themselves and their partner.

Kyuhyun gives me his full support, especially after he knew that it is about the two of us. He lessened our *coughs* sexy *coughs* time, but increased our ‘lovey-dovey’ bonding. As much as I enjoy our passionate moments, I loved being innocent with him.

We start from the beginning. We try to be a normal couple. Because it’s not only the two of us anymore. Our world has broadened. We will face more challenges. There will be harder problems. But because his hands perfectly fit mine, we will get through this hand in hand. We will never let the shades of our past bother us anymore.

By the way, did I already say that we’re getting married next month?

“Hey, Min, what are you doing?” Kyuhyun asks, his head peeking from behind the door.

He immediately closes his diary and walks to his fiancé with a sweet smile on his face. He opens the door wider then fixed Kyuhyun’s necktie before walking outside of the room.

“I’m finishing my book.” He chirps, clinging onto the taller man’s arm.

Kyuhyun smiles widely and turns to him as they reach his car. “Ah, really? That’s good, then. I’ll go to my office now. Sandeul is with Nari ahjumma.”

“Okay, baby. Take care! Love you!” He happily says before tiptoeing to give Kyuhyun’s lips a peck. Kyuhyun pecks back and strokes his hair lovingly. “I love you, too.”

It never fails to send him giggling.

“Laters, baby.”

For the nth time, I and my inner god die mentally.

THE END

-UNBETAED.
-First of all I wanna thank you all for reading and commenting! I appreciate every single thing and it does matter a lot! Hihi thank you for being patient with me in updating for more than one year!
-Sadly, for now, this is the last chaptered fic that I’ll make. I know I’ll be too busy soon and I might not focus on it. But I will appear from time to time by posting one-shots huehue
-Oh, and I’m apologizing for the part where I made it look like Kyuhyun died huehue
-Again, thank you, thank you, thank you!! Let’s continue spreading KyuMin love! <33333