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so much can happen in four days without the internet. wow. did you miss me?
so my internet was messed up and i thought my life was over. i laugh at myself at the moment. im such a loser. i spend way too much time in front of my big 17 inch moniter.
so now for the dramatic thinking and realizations i have come to in the past week...
being original has lost its meaning. everyone wants to be unique, which sounds awesome, no one trying to be like everyone else. but the realizations i see are that if everyone is trying so hard, then your not being yourself. what if you are meant to love abercrombie and think brand new is the bomb.com, but say you hate it all, because you want to be original. yea fucking right. ask anyone who knows me if im your average person. theyre going to say no, im freak who thinks too much and could quite possibly be bi polar. (however you spell that) ill tell everyone right now, IM A FREAK. im proud of it too. i couldnt care less if you love me or hate me. you might think im the ugliest person you have ever met. you might think im the hottest girl who ever walked the planet. you might think i have the smellest boobs on this side of california. i dont care. love me hate me, your probably a fake who wants to get in my pants anyways...
so theres my form of originality. whats yours? you think shopping hot topic and listening to damian rice, and slitting your wrists while writing death poems is your form of originality. get a clue. everyone is doing it. thats not original.
"they dont sit out on sunset blvd sipping on diet coke reading books of love poetry while having overly analytical conversations about things. they sit out here in westlake glued to the internet trying to find themselves" - gino silver, the greatest brother anyone could ask for.
April 5th 2004 EDIT: i felt the need to announce the 10th year that has gone by since kurts death. i never knew who he was until about 5 years ago when my brother started playing guitar and i started appreciating music. he was amazing and i feel really corny for putting this in, but i know the music world and the rest of our lives would be better if he was still alive.