Grr...
Today something strange happened to me.
I was in the train, I was going to meet a friend of mine. And there was another woman in front of me.
At first, she was all smiles, talking to me like we were friends of something.
Then she asked me my age. And I answered: 17! It's my age after all...
So she says that I'm just a child and all that stuff.
I only nodded. After all... I AM JUST A CHILD!!!
Then she says she's a mom.
So I just shrugged and said I was going to be a mom too, in May.
At first, she seems happy and hugs me, then, she starts treating me like I was an alien or a serial killer, with strange hints...
I mean... ok! I'm underage and all, but hell! You don't have to to treat me like shit! You can smile politely and change seat or just close your goddamned mouth until the train stops!
Argh!
She practically ruined my day. When I met my friend, I couldn't help but thinking about her behaviour.
I had to fight all my hormones to not cry in front my friend when she picked me from the train station.
I hate this mid-age gossip woman.
LIVE YOUR PERFECT LIFE, BUT LEAVE ME ALONE!
It's not my fault, ok? I just got pregnant, I just happened to be seventeen, I was just enough in love with my man and my baby to keep him, keep them.
I CHOSE TO BE AN ADULT! I CHOSE TO STOP DRINKING, SMOKING AND ALL THAT STUFF.
I CHOSE TO BE A GOOD FIANCE', SO I COULD BE A GOOD MOM AT 17!!!
What the hell was she doing at 17??!
On my 17th birthday I woke up at 5 am, I put more than 300 leaflets in almost every postbox of my city, I went to school for 6 fucking hours, I had lunch, I delivered the rest of the leaflets I was supposed to deliver, I went in the book shop to work. I stayed there until 10.30 pm because that that day my stupid, crazy, sociopath boss decided he (meaning me) just had to tidy up the shop.
So, I'm SO SORRY that after a day like this I went out and FUCKED my boyfriend untill we just fucking FAINTED!!!
So, I'm SO SORRY that during one of our encounters we just stopped thinking and I JUST GOT PREGNANT!!!
It wasn't my idea. But it happened. It just happened.
And just because it just happened, doesn't mean I was going to kill my baby.
So, I really don't care if it isn't what I'm supposed to do at 17.
I've never done what I was supposed to do for my age, anyway...
So, why when I was working and studying like an adult, it was fine, but if I have a child... then I'm some sort of alien?
I'm not a child.
Not anymore.
So, just leave me alone...
I was in the train, I was going to meet a friend of mine. And there was another woman in front of me.
At first, she was all smiles, talking to me like we were friends of something.
Then she asked me my age. And I answered: 17! It's my age after all...
So she says that I'm just a child and all that stuff.
I only nodded. After all... I AM JUST A CHILD!!!
Then she says she's a mom.
So I just shrugged and said I was going to be a mom too, in May.
At first, she seems happy and hugs me, then, she starts treating me like I was an alien or a serial killer, with strange hints...
I mean... ok! I'm underage and all, but hell! You don't have to to treat me like shit! You can smile politely and change seat or just close your goddamned mouth until the train stops!
Argh!
She practically ruined my day. When I met my friend, I couldn't help but thinking about her behaviour.
I had to fight all my hormones to not cry in front my friend when she picked me from the train station.
I hate this mid-age gossip woman.
LIVE YOUR PERFECT LIFE, BUT LEAVE ME ALONE!
It's not my fault, ok? I just got pregnant, I just happened to be seventeen, I was just enough in love with my man and my baby to keep him, keep them.
I CHOSE TO BE AN ADULT! I CHOSE TO STOP DRINKING, SMOKING AND ALL THAT STUFF.
I CHOSE TO BE A GOOD FIANCE', SO I COULD BE A GOOD MOM AT 17!!!
What the hell was she doing at 17??!
On my 17th birthday I woke up at 5 am, I put more than 300 leaflets in almost every postbox of my city, I went to school for 6 fucking hours, I had lunch, I delivered the rest of the leaflets I was supposed to deliver, I went in the book shop to work. I stayed there until 10.30 pm because that that day my stupid, crazy, sociopath boss decided he (meaning me) just had to tidy up the shop.
So, I'm SO SORRY that after a day like this I went out and FUCKED my boyfriend untill we just fucking FAINTED!!!
So, I'm SO SORRY that during one of our encounters we just stopped thinking and I JUST GOT PREGNANT!!!
It wasn't my idea. But it happened. It just happened.
And just because it just happened, doesn't mean I was going to kill my baby.
So, I really don't care if it isn't what I'm supposed to do at 17.
I've never done what I was supposed to do for my age, anyway...
So, why when I was working and studying like an adult, it was fine, but if I have a child... then I'm some sort of alien?
I'm not a child.
Not anymore.
So, just leave me alone...