The End
Of everything in the world that he would rather have been doing right now, this was about the last thing on the list. Anything would be better than this. The guilt was overwhelming, and Ayden had been worrying and upset about this for days.
Just please don't cry, he thought firmly as he fired up the Skype, and he wasn't sure whether he was pleading with himself or Senri.
Mostly himself, he thought. In a lot of ways Senri was stronger, or at least harder, than him, and ...
And oh God he didn't want to do it, but the alternative was unbearable. Months on end apart, waiting, not knowing, this whole life of uncertainty and fleeting moments and god, it was wonderful but it wasn't enough. Was that selfish?
Of course it's bloody selfish, he told himself. And you're a bastard. But...
Between finals and moving home and the fact he'd barely slept since Senri left, it wasn't enough. And circumstances weren't going to change any time soon...
Senri should have been expecting him, so it hopefully wouldn't be too long before he answered the video call. Ayden was pretty sure he'd know straight away that something was wrong, and tried his best to keep his expression as neutral as he could manage.
Anyone who ever said break-ups were easy had been bloody heartless.
Just please don't cry, he thought firmly as he fired up the Skype, and he wasn't sure whether he was pleading with himself or Senri.
Mostly himself, he thought. In a lot of ways Senri was stronger, or at least harder, than him, and ...
And oh God he didn't want to do it, but the alternative was unbearable. Months on end apart, waiting, not knowing, this whole life of uncertainty and fleeting moments and god, it was wonderful but it wasn't enough. Was that selfish?
Of course it's bloody selfish, he told himself. And you're a bastard. But...
Between finals and moving home and the fact he'd barely slept since Senri left, it wasn't enough. And circumstances weren't going to change any time soon...
Senri should have been expecting him, so it hopefully wouldn't be too long before he answered the video call. Ayden was pretty sure he'd know straight away that something was wrong, and tried his best to keep his expression as neutral as he could manage.
Anyone who ever said break-ups were easy had been bloody heartless.