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I think I am going insane. Seriously. Im not laughing.
All day I have been wanting to have outbursts in public. Like yell at random people in the streets and chase after them. I have nothing against them. Its not even out of anger or anything. Its almost schitzo style or something. I dont know. Also I went nuts on my aim today and sent random people messages that meant nothing. Weird stuff and shit. I really dont know what is going on in my head. Ive been like this for awhile now. Its crazy. I dont know what is going on in this head. It makes no sense to me. Sometimes I am walking and randomly laugh to myself and after a split second of that I catch myself fearing somebody will look at me like Im crazy and smother the outburst inside of me. During those moments I just have such a strong craving to just laugh maniacally and not stop until I am out of breath. I just want to laugh and yell about such absurd things. I want to write stuff on public walls everywhere, shit that makes no sense and then blame it on the nearest person next to me and watch a mob turn on them or something just for my own amusement. Maybe grab a cat by its tail and swing it around and throw it at a wall and watch it go spazzoid when it lands back on the ground. Maybe light things on fire in dumpsters and then revel in the idea that I am contributing to the destruction of the ozone layer and then laugh at myself out of the irony that I am going to die because of it someday. I want to buy a thousand dildos and rent a bi-plane and drop them all in a christian childrens camp. There are too many things to list off that I want to do that would probably not satisfy my urge for insanity. Just too many. I should just stop now.
fuck off.
All day I have been wanting to have outbursts in public. Like yell at random people in the streets and chase after them. I have nothing against them. Its not even out of anger or anything. Its almost schitzo style or something. I dont know. Also I went nuts on my aim today and sent random people messages that meant nothing. Weird stuff and shit. I really dont know what is going on in my head. Ive been like this for awhile now. Its crazy. I dont know what is going on in this head. It makes no sense to me. Sometimes I am walking and randomly laugh to myself and after a split second of that I catch myself fearing somebody will look at me like Im crazy and smother the outburst inside of me. During those moments I just have such a strong craving to just laugh maniacally and not stop until I am out of breath. I just want to laugh and yell about such absurd things. I want to write stuff on public walls everywhere, shit that makes no sense and then blame it on the nearest person next to me and watch a mob turn on them or something just for my own amusement. Maybe grab a cat by its tail and swing it around and throw it at a wall and watch it go spazzoid when it lands back on the ground. Maybe light things on fire in dumpsters and then revel in the idea that I am contributing to the destruction of the ozone layer and then laugh at myself out of the irony that I am going to die because of it someday. I want to buy a thousand dildos and rent a bi-plane and drop them all in a christian childrens camp. There are too many things to list off that I want to do that would probably not satisfy my urge for insanity. Just too many. I should just stop now.
fuck off.