so confused.

[ayanadnb]

so my relationship has been great.. until last month. i started getting all these insecurities and feeling incredibly sensitive.. and now i don't know if this will ever be resolved. i think that there is just something nice about a person reassuring you that you are important to them. he doesn't do this.. but i dont think its any fault of his, i think that instead it makes him a completely sane person... he is completely individuated and doesn't need affirmations from people like i do.

every other relationship that i have been in i have gotten the whole "i miss you sooo much" "i love you sooo much" "waking up next to you is the best thing ever"... these kind of things make me happy. make me feel loved. make me feel validated in the relationship. is it so wrong to ask for these? and yes.. the more i think about it, the more we do need validation from our partner.. and if we aren't feeling loved, or validated.. then what?

case in point.. today i told him that it was so nice to sleep next to him last night (As i often sleep at my own house), and that i slept so well.. to which he replied "i slept good last night too - but i always sleep good. but it was nice to sleep next to you".... hmmm... i just feel like there is a time when brutal honesty is not necessary.. and this was one of those times.

fuck.