and..
the new goal being, we have had some great times. And I can say with tears in my eyes and a half-smile on my face that he was my first true love.. and that although i did quite a bit to fuck it up.. i also did my share of trying to keep us together.. unsuccessfully.
i just want to take all of the bad things i did, and throw them away so that in case i ever do see myself in another relationship, i will do things better.
i love him.. and i always want to be with him, we just can’t seem to make things right, and we keep hurting each other.
i wish i could take him back in my arms so bad and make things right again. it just seems like shit is so tainted at this point. ahh.. i love him. i want him back. can’t i have that?
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