La Dee Da

[ayame_faye]

So im in a pretty good mood. I finally got my assistant hired at work, so thats a hug relief. He will do a good job. I finally started working on my flower garden, and will have the landscaping for the whole house (minus the fence) completed before our housewarming party in September! AWA is fast approaching, and i still need wigs done and a couple costumes fixed. I picked up the Faye Valentine ball gown, and was was pleased at the work Jamie did with it, especially with how busy she is all the time!Im excited for Rachel to be attending make up school, as i feel that she will do a excellent job, and feel a lot of anxiety and trepidation over Heathers current pregnancy, but i know that deep down, there is a reason for it to happen this way. In time, all things will be revealed, i suppose. So lately lots of my friends have been talking about going to school, and io have come to the realization that i am absolutely terrified of enrolling in school. I have been working since i was 14 and lied to del taco about my age to work. i cant really remember a time when i wasnt working, so the value of a hard earned dollar is most definately not lost on me. i finally have a good job that pays great, more than almost everyone i know that has a degree, but i feel that i am selling myself short. I would love to be a counselor for children of families with drug addicted/alcoholic parents, or an adoption coordinator. I would also like to do some kind of writing. Believe it or not, i actually have written a significant amount or poetry and have had a couple poems published. I dont really understand why i feel the need to basically sabotage myself when it comes to school work. As soon as i get the nerve to finally go there and enroll, i will literally talk my self out of it, citing so many stupid, ridiculous reasons as to why it just wont work. I dont have that problem in any other aspect of my life. Im a very independent person, and im upfront about my feelings and opinions. I dont have a problem with confrontation or taking a challenge head on, with this one exception... any suggestions on why this would be?

Anyways, Anime Weekend Atlanta is going to be awesome! There is room available in the hotel room if anyone is interested in joining us. So far it is just Rachel, Dan and I. Plenty of room!